But It Isn't Enough!

Chapter 4

After twenty minutes of walking I have decided that I'll take the walk to the forest that I was supposed to go with Ben. Well we know that that's not going to happen. My phone starts to ring and it's Evie calling probably Ben told her to call me because he knows that I wouldn't pick up on him. Even though I know why she is calling I won't act childish and I'll pick up Evie's call.

Evie: hey Mal are you ok? (does she know what happened?)
Mal: well as ok as I can be now
Evie: so did you saw them too? (what does that mean? She continues) I never thought that Ben would come so close with her!
Mal: we're talking about Audrey right?
Evie: yeah. Sorry I just had to call you and see if you experienced the same thing as me (there's no way Evie is being so dramatic because Audrey leaned over to Ben. Something else is going on here. Something worse than what I saw)
Mal: sooo can you remind me what we saw? (I know that's it's stupid to say that but scr*w everything now I need to know)
Evie: what? It's been only half an hour Mal. I mean I understand that you want to forget what happened and that's why you ask. Well if I was in your place I wouldn't be so calm catching Ben making out with Audrey. It's crazy only to think about!

WHAT???? NO NO NO! I MEAN WHAT?
How?Why?When? The person that did this can't be Ben. Ben who loves and respects me so much. He can't have cheated on me. And most importantly. WITH AUDREY! He broke me twice and this won't pass. ENOUGH! Ben tried hard to show me good and I respect his try but let's now show Ben some EVIL! I won't take over the world with evil but I won't hold back! This time I don't care about nothing else than just destroying Ben and his feelings! He will regret what he did but it will be too late then. And to me it smells like REVENGE! But still I have to answer to Evie before all this.

Mal: yeah I know right? How much of a disrespectful king is he? But however. He is a king OK but he lost his queen! I'm done with him for good! Or should I say bad? (I release an evil laugh and Evie catches immediately that something is wrong)
Evie: Mal what's going on? Why do you sound evil? What happened?
Mal: Ben happened! That's what happened! They say that pretty hurts well in that case "pretty kings hurt me"! (I laugh again and then I realise that I sound drunk. So quickly I continue) But don't worry I'm fine even though he broke me it is easier to get over him because I've been thinking about it a lot these days that he had left me all alone. I have to close Evie but really thank you for calling to help straight away. I appreciate that.
Evie: of course I will do everything i can to help you. Take care sweety!

She's so kind and such a great best friend! I walk in the forest a bit to decide my plans and then I'm ready to head back to the palace. I have a wicked plan and I'm so gonna get what I want! I will start off by staying at the palace and keep my "relationship" as it is. I'm still marrying Ben in 4 days. Everyone will know that everything is good with the two of us but in reality I'm so over Ben's b*ullshit. I can see the palace and I grab all of my thoughts and lock them in a room in the back of my mind for now because I don't need them yet. Well I just remembered that I exited the palace running before so there may be some questions... Sorry no time to talk people!
I'm heading to the third floor where my bedroom is and I hope to see Ben and Audrey still in there but probably they won't be. I enter my room and the first thing I see is been sitting on my bed his elbows on his knees and his hands running through his hair. he looks as confused as I was moments ago but I am not taking this. He thinks that he is a good actor well watch me!

Mal: hey are you ok? You seem a little upset. (I can see him freaking out with me reactioning so calm)
Ben: what? Aren't you mad at me?
Mal: I can to use the word mad but broken. Even though I tho I couldn't make it as a queen I was trying Ben and you really tore everything down.
Ben: Look I can explain I...
Mal: No Ben. We both know that this cannot go right. You deserve somebody like Audrey if not Audrey and I deserve somebody to give me a normal life and a little bit of evil. I actually missed it. I know you love me and I love you too even after what you did I still love you I would never stop loving you for that but we want different things Ben. I can't give you what you need from your Queen and you can't give me what I grew up with. You need a  queen and I need freedom something I can't have if I become your queen. My point here is: we should keep the "relationship" going for some days but we should break the wedding off like one day before it?
Ben: wait... what do you mean we want different things I thought we wanted the same thing: to be together! What have changed now?
Mal: Ben you know what they say: even if two people love each other if they cannot agree on the same things they should not be together. And that's exactly us! we love each other everyone has to spend the rest of our lives together bat our lives are not going on the same road. Our dreams don't come together you want different things that I want. And if we try to be together the only thing that we're going to complish is one of us losing their dream and getting disappointed. Do you really want to be in a relationship with somebody that is not thinking the same as you?

He takes his time to answer. I'm feeling like I'm breaking my heart into or a thousand pieces. We are literally breaking up.

Ben: yes!

What did he say? I thought he was logic but right now I just did the other side in him!

Mal: what do you mean Ben? Do you want to live in a sad life with somebody that it's going to disappoint you and upset you?
Ben: yes if that someone is you because I love you and I would never be able to move on from you!
Mal: Ben you're thinking wrong
Ben: and so? This is about our lives! Nobody can correct us on our lives! We CAN be together.
Mal: did you forget what you did to me?
( I tried convincing him that what he is saying is wrong but he doesn't get it so the last thing that I can do is to prove him that he is a cheater and a liar!)
Ben: I thought you were not mad about it
Mal: there's a difference between being mad with somebody because he cheated on you and having some serious thoughts because somebody cheated on you! Ben! Just think that our lives will be easier!
Ben: I can't...I... Just give me some time alright. you told me that we should stay in the relationship for some days and quit a bit before the wedding.
Mal: will it be over after that? (he's finally understanding it)
Ben: NO of course not! I'm just giving you time to understand what you are saying and want to be with me again!
Mal: why are you making this so difficult?

He seriously just said that he is going to give me time to think that I want to be with him when I'm telling him that I don't because I'm so pressed together. I'm losing my life right now! Too much drama!

Mal: BEN right now I'm wasting my time and I prefer to do better things when I have time but guess what? as a princess ,that I'm not, I did not have time. But guess again. I'm not a fre*king princess ANYMORE!

I can't deal with him! A normal person would think that we fight out of passion for each other but that's not happening with us! He KNOWS we can't be together! But still... he's crazy.
And I'm exhausted. I'm going to Evie's and she will help me.

Evie: hey ( she gives me a supportive hug, I called to the way here to inform her about everything that happened) I'm so sorry!
Mal: well... you're the wrong person to be sorry.
Evie: I called the guys for support too.
Jay: I told her that I could smash his f*cking head but she didn't allow me. ( he lifts his shoulders as an "I didn't know what to do" and he manages to steal a smile from me)

Moments later we are all laying on the couches and I'm crying in Evie's hug.

Carlos: hey...do you saying it could be a good idea to take a break from all this drama and take a "vacation" ,if you call it like that, on the Isle?
Evie: that's an amazing idea! You'll get some fresh air and also go to the place that you love! You are amazing Carlos!
Jay: that could be good and I actually wanted to head over to the Isle for a ride.
Mal: yeah that could be a really good idea the aisle is working feel free so we're taking that!
Evie: great now you have to wait at least 10 minutes so I can design you a perfect outfit for the Isle!

Evie leaves the room to go to her <<Evie's 4 Hearts>> studio to make an outfit for me and Jay turns to me.

Jay: hey I have a question.
Mal: what is it? Is it about what happened with Ben?
Jay: not really
Mal: then you can ask! (We both start laughing. Carlos is asleep)
Jay: how to make clothes in 10 minutes? Does she use magic or something because she would never be able to do it on her own!
Mal: actually she does it ALL on her own! She can make a princess ball gown in 15 minutes! Isn't that incredible well except the fact that I will not need a princess ball gown anymore...
Jay: well that's incredible... and sad at the same time! Sorry!
Mal: don't be I'm fine. And about Evie: I guess she has the talent!

We burst into laughter again. all this time that I was trying to be a princess I have forgotten how hanging out with my friends is. I mean these are not my friends they are my family! And I was so stupid getting so focused on Ben and the kingdom that I didn't give attention to them. To my family! They don't seem that upset about it but I think they really are!

         I thought that I should include
         Carlos to the story because he
         Is a big part of it♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
                 Our Carlos Forever♥️