What's Next??// Jimin X Reader ~Book 2~

Chapter 8

the first thing that rushed through my mind, was it one of the men from last night?

i start to panic as I scan through my memories. "n-no this cant be happening!" I say raking both my hands over my face then raking them through my hand and leave them there and I lean on my knees 

"what's the matter Y/n?" Jimin asked getting out of his chair and gets on his knees in front of me. I stare at nothing and look through my memory. its just what I feared.

"its not yours" I say in a whisper. he's the only one who cant be the father cause we took precautions... but the men at that.. place, they didn't..

"its not what??" he asked. I look up "its nothing" I said standing up and looking at the doctor "this is amazing news! thanks so much!" I say faking a smile before taking Jimin's hand in mine.

"lets get home" I say with soft words, he looked doubtful but in the end we went home with a list of things to get

Jacky met us at the door "how'd it go?" he asked, before I could say anything Jimin took the lead "well she's not sick"

"well that's good" she let out a sigh 

"but she is pregnant" he blurted out

Jacky's jaw dropped as her eyes widened "she's what?!?!" i put on a fake smile as I turn to Jimin. "I'll be right back" he nodded before I started making my way to the bathroom.

I close the door and lock it behind me.

I curl up in the corner and just let it all out. its not his, why cant it just be his? I ask myself as I sob so hard I thought my eyes would roll out of my head

I feel my phone vibrate, I calm down just enough to answer the person calling me, I didn't even look to see who it was

"hello?"

"hey its Jisung- why does it sound like your crying?"

"cause I am"

"what's the matter??"

"I'm pregnant"

"well that should be good news! so why does it sound like a sad cry?"

"its not Jimin's" I say letting out a sob "does he know" he asked "no he looked so happy, I didn't have the heart to tell him. and I don't think he'd be to happy about it either" I said blowing my nose in some toilet paper

"I'm sure he wont be mad about it if you tell him the context"

"well I cant tell him.. he saw my bruises last night and wasn't to happy. if he found out someone raped me and I got pregnant he would make me quit my job after I finally went on a mission" I say between sobs. 

"what am I going to do?" I asked and I pull my knees to my chest and place my head on them

"I don't know Y/n" he said with a sad tone. "I have a friend. he's really good at advice, I could ask him?"

"or I could just kill the baby, make it look like an accident" I say my thoughts aloud

"don't you even dare Y/n! that's stupid and even you know there's another way"

"if I know another way, why haven't I thought of it?" I asked almost yelling in tears. "or I could kill myself and the secret will die with me" I said. "Y/n! if you kill yourself I'll tell your husband myself"

"go ahead, I'll be to dead to care" I said before hanging up. well time to say goodbye for real this time.

I stand up and reach for the pills in the cabinet. I pour some in my hands and stare at them

if I take these pills they'll kill this child, and they wont have to grow up and suffer the feeling of growing up in a family that wasn't there's 

and they wont have to meet this cruel and un fair world.

and I wont have to see Jimin disappointed in me, he'll be upset when he finds out the child's not his. and I cant stand to see the love of my life upset like that. plus they have grown used to being without me, they can get used to being with out me again...

tears stream down my face as I hear someone bang on the door.

goodbye world.

I swallow all the pills I could before falling, but I blacked out before I remember touching the ground

Jacky's POV 

I was sitting on the couch waiting for mom to come back and we could talk about baby things. I cant wait to have a baby brother or sister

just then my phone rings. I sit up and answer it

"hey this is your classmate Jisung"

"oh hello Mister Trainee" I respond not even caring he has my number

"where's your mother?"

"in the bathroom, why are you so concerned about my mother?" I asked turning to dad and sharing a confused look with him. but soon my look turns to something of grief, sadness and shock..

"go to her!!"

"why?"

"she's trying to kill herself!!! stop her!!" he screamed through the phone

I tear fell from my eye, dad saw that and connected the dots.

he went to the bathroom and I followed, he banged on the door but no answer so he kicked the door in before rushing to mom and catching her. I look on the counter and see the pills

"we'll talk later" I said before hanging up on Jisung and calling 911

"yes its my mother, she swallowed a lot of pills" I said before dropping to my knees next to my mother and holding her hand as I stayed on the line with the 911 operator.

"when did it happen?" 

"just now"

"what's you name miss?"

"Jacky, Jacky Park"

"well Jacky, the medics are 5 minutes away. do you know how to do the Heimlich?'

"yes!"

"well pretend your mother is choking"

"okay"

I put the lady on speaker and lifted my mother up and did the Heimlich on her several times. she coughed up 8 pills before the paramedics got there and pumped her stomach.

I stood there in my fathers embrace crying my eyes out. the thought of her not making it scares me that's when I heard my father whisper something, but it wasn't to me

"you said you'd always come home" 

then I heard a gasp