My Letters To Charlie

#3

October 6,2012

Dear Charlie,

             Its been a while. And basically, I am once again, tired. Too much school works being given per week. But I dont want to focus on the now. Remember Jade? Well, the last few weeks, we hung out. Just like old times. its kinda nostalgic if you ask me. But then her circle of friends are coming now and them when we were together. so our bonding time is getting cut off. Unlike you Charlie, I started being involved to co-curicular activities. I'm leaving in a couple of hours for school. Its called "Tanglaw ng Kabataan" in the Tagalog ((Filipino Language)) when I translate it, it somehow says "Youth of Light" something like that. Its a group where we help those unfortunate by spending a day with them. We help them with their studies ((because most of them are kids)) and we play with them. feed them for a day and stuff. Its fun basically. So that's that. Last night, I fell asleep early. without any intention of doing so. But I guess I was so tired. I want to have one of those "we felt infinite" moments. but since I have lots of girl friends, dont get me wrong..I like my girl friends but I'm comfortable with boys most of the time, I dont think that's gonna happen soon. My teacher told me that there are three kinds of conscience. I forgot what they are called so I'll call them as "Good Conscience" , "Tender Conscience" , and "Hard Conscience". It depends on the person whether you'll have which one of the three. I'll explain the 3 before I start saying which one I think I have. Good Conscience is where you know which is right and which is wrong. Tender Conscience is where you know which is right and which is wrong BUT if you did something you think is wrong but is right, you'll feel that you've hurt someone even if you didn't. And lastly, Hard Conscience is thinking that what you did is right when in God's eyes, its wrong. I myself think that I have the Tender Conscience. Whenever I tell my friends that I did something , they'll go "you're being paranoid again". And generally, I do sometimes think that I overreact to much.  Charlie, when things go rough. Just don't think things over by yourself, try asking other people's opinion. I have this one friend who I recently made friends with. Let's call him Austin. Basically, Austin became my friend for 2 reasons. One because I think he is a good friend. And two, because he IS  a good friend. Austin did a really great job in helping me. really. Even though, he was just there. Listening to my problems, rants and other things that a typical girl would do. He stays. He waits for me to finish my statements and then he says something. But sometimes, a good friend doesn't need to say anything to you for you to feel better. Sometimes, its okay for someone to listen to you. Its okay for them to feel sympathy. But I myself, think that sympathy doesn't help. It makes you feel like you have the most fatal case of problems in the world.

That's that. Talk to you next time~

Love Always,

Your Friend