Nowhere To Run

12 - i lost control

The flight on the way back to Thailand was exhausting for Beam. His family was asleep on the plane while Forth was looking at something on his laptop.

Forth would glance at him every now and then. Beam pretends to not notice it.

Beam wondered about what his living situation would be. He was reluctant to ask if he will go home with Forth as soon as the jet landed.

"Beam, your things have been packed and sent to our house. Check if anything is missing when we get home." And like an answered prayer, Forth told him.

Home?

His things have been delivered to Forth's house without his permission. But of course he didn't feel the need to ask Beam, he was above that. Forth acts and decides as if he owns Beam now. In a certain way, he does.

"O-okay.." Beam answered meekly.

The second the jet landed they were welcomed by an entourage of security, his family was escorted into a vehicle. Beam did get to say a short goodbye before he was ushered into their own ride.

Forth was talking to someone on the phone the entire drive, Beam tuned it out. He didn't want to hear anything, he just wanted to rest, to sleep. A lot has happened in the last few days and he still hasn't had the chance to breathe and take it all in.

His mind wanders on their wedding night when Forth locked him in an embrace. Beam debated against himself as to why he didn't resist against Forth.

Resisting is pointless now.

Forth is persistent, no amount of defiance would work.

Any reason he could find, he convinced himself of, to put his mind at ease.

"Are you hungry?"

"S-sorry?" Beam jolted back to his senses.

"Do you want to eat?" Forth asked.

"N-no. I just need to get some sleep. I'm tired." This is the longest answer he had given Forth in the last few days.

"Okay. Let me know if there's anything you need." Forth said with great seriousness in his voice.

Beam nodded.

Their car entered a well guarded village. He had only heard of this exclusive place and that it was for the richest among the rich. It was everything they say it was.

The car halted and the driver along with the other guy in the passenger seat rushed to open their door.

As soon as they entered the house, Forth gripped Beam's wrist so tight that there was a sharp pain surging through his whole arm.

Beam was dragged to the stairway up until they reached a door on the second floor. Forth recklessly flung it open and locked it closed. Beam was trying to break free of his grip. Shock and confusion had dominated his body and mind by the sudden unannounced outburst of Forth.

He was roughly pushed on top of the bed.

"Take off your clothes." Forth instructed.

"W-what?" Beam was lost. He rubbed his wrist with his other hand to soothe the pain.

"Take your fvcking clothes off." Forth was seething in frustration and lust. Beam could see it clear as day.

"F-forth.. I.. Please.. I'm tired.. I.."

"You pretended to be asleep on our wedding night and you expect me now to wait?"

Beam felt helpless. He stood up and slowly made his way to the door only to be yanked back by Forth. Beam fell on the carpeted floor.

His temples started throbbing as the exhaustion made him dizzy. Everything began to spin.

Forth towered over him. Beam did his best to writhe his body away from Forth. Beam closed his eyes. He can hear ripping sounds as his clothes gets torn one by one and then everything went black.

Beam was awoken in total fear gasping for air, he sat up, hyperventilating and drenched in sweat. His eyes roam around the unfamiliar room, highly disoriented.

His sight stopped at Forth sitting near the balcony.

"Beam come over here. I want to kiss you."

His ears and cheeks heated up. Beam was in no way conservative but Forth's explicit mouth renders him shy and embarassed for reasons he doesn't know.

"Please don't make me ask again." There was a firmness and gentleness in his voice.

Making Forth angry was the last thing he wants to do so even though Beam felt physically weak, he still tried to walk where Forth was casually sitting.

Forth tapped his lap as if to invite Beam.

With hesitation, Beam found himself sitting on Forth's lap. Forth wrapped his arms around Beam's waist and he nuzzled his face on Beam.

"I lost control earlier." Forth said matter of factly.

"It's hard to control myself around you." He whispered against Beam's pounding chest.