Nowhere To Run

13 - i did something bad

"You're soaked in sweat, love. I'll prepare you a bath." Forth went to the bathroom and Beam could hear the sound of rushing water.

Beam was confused by Forth's mood shift. He now has the need to tiptoe or walk on eggshells because of this. Cautious to not trigger Forth's rage and wrath.

Forth emerged from the bathroom door, barefooted and with all his buttons undone. He nodded at Beam to invite him over. When Beam didn't moved Forth gently took his hand led him inside the bathroom.

"It's okay Beam. I won't hurt you. I promise."

He went along with Forth's instruction. His ripped shirt has been removed along with his remaining clothing. Forth did it with such ease, admiring every part of Beam that he can see and touch.

Beam was looking everywhere but Forth. Specially since he was undressing himself. But like a magnet his eyes are automatically drawn at the sight of Forth being naked. Beam had taken pride of his physique but Forth was on a different level. It looks like his body was sculpted perfectly.

"Do you like what you see? It's yours." Forth smirked.

Beam looked away feeling the heat rush to his face.

The bathtub was filled with infused peppermint water that made Beam eager to soak his body in to but he waited for Forth. With a slight touch of Forth's hand in his lower back, Beam felt like he was electrecuted, shock sweep through his body. Forth got into the tub and he followed suit. He sat right exactly between Forth's thighs.

Beam felt like his heart would pound so hard it will break. He felt Forth's hands snaked through his abdomen, he was pulled closer that he was leaning on Forth's chest.

They sat in silence as Forth gently washes and massages Beam's neck with the peppermint water. Beam closed his eyes, unconciously leaning to give Forth more access.

"Beam? Do you remember that day when we volunteered to build a school in the rural area?" Forth asked.

"Y-yes.. Why do you ask?"

"That was one of the happiest memories that I have." Forth answered softly.

"W-what made it so special?" Beam had an idea why but he wanted to hear it from Forth.

Forth chuckled.

"Because that was the day you told me you love me."

Beam was expecting it but he was still surprised all the same.

"I d-did. I remember." Beam agreed.

"You still do right?" Forth gripped on his waist.

"Right Beam?" He asked again.

The words had escaped him like the air in his lungs. Beam stiffened, he doesn't know the answer nor does he want to know.

"It's okay. You don't have to answer now." Forth continued to massage his neck down to his shoulders.

"I miss those nights when we would just go for a drive in my motorbike going nowhere or making out at the beach." Forth says with great sense of nostalgia.

"I went to that dumpling shack you used to take me to back in college." Beam shared.

"The owner told me you still drop by there occasionally." He added.

"Their dumplings was extraordinary, it still is, plus we had a lot of good times there. I go back there everytime I want to remember us." Forth rested his chin on Beam's shoulders.

"The happy and good memories of us you mean." Beam pointed out.

"I wish I can only remember the good ones too." Beam's voice almost broke.

Flashbacks of their fight three years ago filled Beam's head. Forth screaming at his face and him crying. Kneeling in front of Forth's door in the middle of the night, begging as Forth pushes him away.

Beam rubbed his arms like a cold chill had just swept through him as he shakes off the memory.

"F-forth?"

"Hmmm?" Forth hummed in response.

Since they were recalling the past Beam thought that he might as well ask the question that has been living in his mind for years.

Beam gulped and gathered all the courage he has.

"W-why did you c-cheat on me three years ago?"