"i think part of the reason as to why we hold onto something so tight is because we fear that something so great will never, ever happen twice."
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the sun hitting my face, i got up and realized i was still on the roof. i look for Brandon and he's still next to me sleep so peacefully.
"Brandon, wake up" i start to shake him.
"it's not a school day" he mumbles
"brandon get up, we are still on the roof"
he gets up quickly which makes me flinch
"well then, good morning" he scratches his head
"my back hurts" as i try to twist around
"let's go inside"
we go into my room and i look into the mirror and i scream.
Brandon comes running to my room.
"what happened?"
"im a mess"
"no, your not, your 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩" he kisses my cheeks and tries to make a bun with my curly hair.
we are a few inches apart, staring at each other's eyes.
he starts to lean in and i back away.
"im sorry, i can't do this" i start walking away to make myself some breakfast.
he sighed and walked behind me.
i sit on the kitchen counter and i go on instagram.
he stands in front of me, looking at me.
he puts his hands on my thighs and i push them away
"stop brandon" i sigh
"why don't you want to love me" he pouted
"Brandon, we went over this, we are friends, nothing more."
"but i want to be more than friends"
"goddamn it brandon, why can't you just wait, it's not the time" im angry now
"will you just chill out damn" he puts his hands in defense and walks to a chair and sits down.
"let's walk to 7-eleven"
we both got up and walked out the door, so much for breakfast
it was very sunny outside but the clouds are now gray, i think it's going to rain
we walked and he told me jokes and i wouldn't stop laughing
"hey, i know what's your favorite thing to do" rain drops start appearing on our faces
"oh my gosh, not in the rain brandon" i giggled
"yes, in the rain lia" he gushed
we didn't even make it to 7-eleven and he put his phone against a tree and we started to dance in the rain.
he knows my favorite thing to do, is having a dance party
i didn't care if people were staring, i was having fun
we danced to my favorite songs and i claimed, i was a better dancer.
we were both soaking wet but we both had smiles on our faces.
he put a slow dance on
"i can slow dance brandon"
"ill teach you" he smiled
we were slow dancing in the rain while looking at each other eyes and his dimple came out perfectly.
"you can't catch me" i ran across the street while my hair was all ove my face
he ran towards me and grabbed me and hugged me for a few minutes.
"can you do a bun please, you make a better bun than me" i pouted
he laughed and made a bun
"your hair is beautiful"
"i hate my curly hair" i pout
we had a race back to my house and went back in my room.
i changed into my unicorn pjs because im childish while he brought some extra clothes.
"why are you wearing pjs, in the day" he laughed
"i mean why not" i shrugged as i struggled to untangle my hair.
"here" he grabbed the brush and started brushing my tangled hair.
"you know, sometimes i really enjoy brushing your hair and doing your hair even the little things because i was going to have a little sister or brother and he or her died.. and if they were here right now, i would be doing anything for them. you make me feel like im an older brother to a wonderful kid in a better place, sometimes i just stare up in my ceiling and think about how much fun, i would be having with him or her. i want a brother or sister-" his voice cracks with the last words which makes me shed a tear.
"Brandon, im so sorry, you don't deserve this" i hug him so tightly
he looks up to me with his soft eyes
"i love you" his voice sounds so sad
i nod
"love you more"
we tried to make tiktoks but messed them all up and we wouldn't stop laughing.
we had a pillow fight and i pushed him off the bed.
i get tired really easily so i decided to take a nap and he was right beside me playing with my curls.
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sorry for being so inactive, maybe ill post another chapter tomorrow, depends how many people read this.
but yeah, how's school ?
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