"i wish i could give you my pain just for one moment. not to hurt you, but so you could finally understand how much you hurt me."
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i felt bad but i did it.... i friend zoned him. i didn't fully forgive him because he can't fix what we used to have with a simple cute sentence.
he wants to forget the past and move on and have a great relationship but for me, it doesn't work like that.
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"stop" i giggle
he continues to tickle me while laughing
"Brandon noo" im out of breath
i laugh and move so much, that i fall off my bed with him.
i fell on top of him in the ground and we are both laughing.
then i realize, i was on top of him
what is wrong with you?
"sorry, excuse me" im so embarrassed as i get up and try to fix myself.
"i have to do homework" i sigh
"let's have a movie night instead" he offered
"Brandon no, you know how much i have to focus on school"
"ill help you, cmon a movie night sounds like a break"
"fine"
stop he's trying to make you fall in love with him again.
i get the blankets from my room and put them on the couch.
i sit on the couch and turn on the tv.
i wonder what movie we are going to watch, he knows my favorite movies are romantic but for this time, i don't want romantic movies.
he comes back with popcorn and m&ms and sits next to me and we are very close.
what are you doing ?
"let's watch a romantic movie since it's your favorite" he smiled
i faked smile and pretended i was glad.
the movie started and i was already done.
i felt forced to watch the movie.
the movie started to get really cute romantic
i felt a tear going down my cheek
Brandon looked at me and wiped it away.
all those past memories of us are coming through my mind.
look, it used to be what you had, it's hurting you
my conscious was killing me.
i got up and ran to the bathroom
i slammed the door and locked it.
i look at myself in the mirror
your not good enough
your making a fool out of yourself
"stop!" i scream
"Lia, Lia what's wrong?"
i slid down the door, sitting against the wall, crying.
i was perfectly fine, why am i feeling this way?
"Lia, open the door"
"Lia open the door, please i love you"
i get up and open the door while tell my conscious to fuck off
"please don't say i love you to me anymore" i mutter
he looks at me with shock and just walks with me to the couch.
it was silence between us
"can we look at the stars again" i sighed
"sure"
we went outside and he got the ladder and leaned it against the roof.
i got up the ladder first and when i got to the top, i slowly put my body against the roof and waited for Brandon to get up.
he finally reach the top and he lay down next to me.
it was freezing and i forgot to bring my jacket.
he noticed i was cold and took his jacket off and he put it on top of me.
"Brandon, you didn't have to do that"
he didn't say anything but continued to look up at the stars.
"they all shine and look different, they are beautiful" he breathed
"im sorry" he sighed
"im sorry for hurting you, im sorry for abusing you over something stupid"
"Brandon i-"
"i never want to hurt you"
"Brandon, i love you" i blurt
he turned his head next to me and smiled.
i felt much better.
we spent the rest of the night pointing and looking at the stars.
he came closer to me and he hugged me.
"ill never hurt you again" he sighed
i smile and notice my eyelids are getting heavy.
i saw Brandon get closer to me and he kissed my forehead.
he started to cuddle with me and then i yawned and closed my eyes.
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THIS CHAPTER WAS SO BORING BYE,
i feel so unmotivated
sorry for the short chapter, there will be more exciting chapters to come.
ily guys so much and hope you enjoyed this chapter.
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