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Desolation boy 3 - help me

Poetry

This one is for the ones who don't feel like they exist. And the ones who never get a break from pain. All poems are from my head, heart, soul and personal experiences 🛑TRIGGER WARNING🛑

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There is no heaven

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by demxns--inside

by demxns--inside

I love you has lost its ring

And instead silence sounds sweet

I'm becoming the monster inside

And I'm not hiding

I am a ghost of a person

Incapable of feeling almost anything

All I can feel is

Anger

Desperation

Desolation

Numbness

And emptiness

I don't know anything else anymore and I don't care

I just don't

Because I'm too tired

And there's nothing left to hold onto

I'm nothing

I have nothing

Soon

I'll completely disappear

And I won't try to come back

I want to float forever

Fly high and soar

Vodka

Weed

To me equals sanity

Reality is hell

There is no heaven