10 hours later
I let out a deep sigh, as I rolled out of my bed. I had woken up much earlier than my alarm clock even started to ring, so I have enough time to get ready.
Instead of actually getting ready, I jumped into my nice, warm bed again and cuddle up into comfortable sheets. My heart was beating way too fast. Have I never been this nervous in my life.
First day of a college is always the most important one. You get to know new people, you include yourself into social groups, all those parties at dorm, lots of experience...
“Stella!” I suddenly heard my mum calling my name from the kitchen. “It's time!”
“Do I have to?” I moaned into my pillow, not able to make a move. I didn't realize the time flies that fast when you're trying to fall asleep again.
“Don't be silly, love.” Said my mother, as she came into my room and opened the blinds. I whined, trying to hide myself from the light from my window that was shining right into my eyes.
“There's a whole new life waiting for you, baby! Adult life!”
My mum was acting way too excited. As I looked at my suitcases, the uncomfortable feeling in my stomach got even bigger. I was really thinking about not going there.
“Can't wait.” I mumbled sarcastically.
About an half hour later, I was waiting next to my old car, with all that package I have packed the night before. That was the typical me, I have known about this for whole summer, yet I packed my things only yesterday. I couldn't decline that awful feeling that I had forgotten something.
At least I'm sure about my phone and the accepting letter with everything it was needed for registration.
My morning wasn't hectic at all. Although I was pretty sure it will be. I barely spoke something, my anxiousness did not allow me to. I have always hated first days. First day of kindergarten, my mum had to take me home because I was crying so much. First day of primary school – the same. I was secretly hoping that something similar will happen this day too. Maybe if I start to cry now...
“Honey, remember that I love you so much, no matter what will happen, okay? Look at you, oh my god. You've grown so much!” Mum started to sob, as she pulled me into a very tight hug. Dad was just awkwardly standing there, not knowing if he should stay quiet, or let out his feelings. Well, he stayed quiet.
Me and my dad are sometimes like the same person. I didn't like showing my feelings, in front of anybody. It felt strange, I have never been into these sentimental stuff. Unlike my mother. She was now crying on my shoulder, and I was the one that had to comfort her.
“Sorry. Sorry...”
Now was my dad's turn. He came to me and hugged me also. He wasn't crying, he just kissed me softly on top of my head and whispered into my ear.
“We're incredibly proud of you.”
It was enough for me. I was holding back the tears, I really didn't want to cry, I spent too much time on my make-up.
The time has finally come. I sit into my car, turned on the radio and drove away from our access road. The last time I waved at my parents and the next second, they disappeared from my sight.
All this felt so strange to me. I haven't had a chance to know the feeling of an independence yet, I have always been under the lock of my parents. Unfortunately, I did not have any siblings also, so it felt twice that weird. Although I liked it. I even enjoyed it. Well, getting used to a responsibility for myself is may not going to be that bad as I though.
YOU ARE READING
Stubborn Love • 5SOS
Fanfiction"So I guess we are who we are for lots of reasons. And maybe, we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from we can still choose where we go from there..."
