Stubborn Love • 5SOS

~3.0 Cuddle buddy~

a.n: I AM SO SORRY IF IT'S SHORT AND IT SUCKS PROBABLY BUT DON'T JUDGE ME I AM TRYING I LOVE YOU.

I literally froze on my place, wasn't able to make a move. I felt my hands shaking and all the alcohol disappeared from my veins in all of sudden.
Calum didn't notice me because he was too busy throwing ping pong ball into competitor's red cup filled with beer.
I need to get out of here, and by that I mean right now and in the fastest way possible.
While I was hurrying away the room, I felt someone bumped into me a cursed very loudly.
“Stella, oh...sorry, didn't see you there.” Luke apologized and fixed my drenched piece of hair out of my forehead.
“It's ... fine.” I blundered out, heading over to door, didn't exactly know where am I going. I just wanted to get away. Luke automatically followed my steps and we ended up outside of the house, in the middle of the night.
I was trying to breathe less heavily, needed to calm my fast heart pounding. I sat down on a grass with Luke squatting next to me with confused look on his face.
“Are you feeling well?”
This time I felt no need to lie. Instead of answering, I just shook my head and held back the tears that I felt in the corners of my eyes.
Unfortunately, my effort was pointless. Within few minutes I was sobbing in Luke's arms.
Why is he here? I don't want him here I don't want to feel the same pain as I did during my high school. I wanted to begin new life and with new people around me, not him! Everything seemed to be perfect, until the point I leaned my eyes on his face a ... boom. All this was gone.
First day... First fucking day.
I heard how Hailey and Michael came to us, trying to find out what happened. I felt Luke's shoulders moving as he showed them he has no clue.
“Stell?” Hailey spoke softly and she sat next to us. When she placed her hand on my shoulder, I began to cry even more.
I buried my face into Luke's chest even deeper. I didn't want to face the others, I wasn't able to face anybody, I felt devastated.
“Do you want me to drive you back into the campus?” Luke asked kindly, while he was rubbing my back.
Instead of answering I just nodded my head into his chest. After that, he helped me to stand up and literally dragged me into his car – in the most innocent way.
About half hour after that little incident with Cal on the party, I was half asleep on the passenger seat, listening to quiet noise of music that was coming out of the radio. I wasn't able to recognize that melody and match it with a song, but Luke began to hum. His softly humming broke the silence and it was making me even sleepier. However, it was comfortable to listen.
I felt dizzy.
All I wanted to do now was cuddle up into the sheets just like I did this morning and crop myself out of the reality for at least ten hours.
Unfortunately, the fact that my first lesson begins in three and half hours didn't allow me to make my wish make true.
Suddenly, the car stopped and I felt Luke's eyes on me.
“How are you feeling babe?”
My heart fluttered.
Did he really call me babe, or am I too drunk?
I decided to explain it to myself just by the amount of alcohol I drank tonight.
“I feel... better.”
“Are you going to tell me what happened back there?”
I stayed silent, thinking about the right answer.
“I just ... panicked. I needed fresh air and I was drunk.”
Luke nodded silently, even though he didn't believe me. I could have seen it on his eyes.
We sit there for a while. We both didn't know what to say, but it wasn't awkward at all. I liked it, how he was one of the very few people that could make me feel like this about silence.
Luke and... Calum.
I was the one that broke it.
“I think I should go. I can't be thankful enough to you for driving me here.” I said with honesty.
A gentle smile appeared on his face, as he leaned his eyes on me again.
Right before I put my hand on the handle ready to step off the car, Luke wrapped his fingers around my wrist and pulled all my weight back into the seat. I knew exactly what he was going to do, yet still I didn't protest.
I let his body leaned closer to mine as he was still gently holding my wrist.
“Luke.” I whispered softly.
Suddenly I felt his lips pressed to mine. It was a quick kiss without any passion. Only a light touch, yet still it felt perfect.
“I'm so sorry.” He quickly apologized and leaned back into his seat. “I shouldn't have done that I'm...”
“Shush. Stop ruining it.” I grinned, enjoying the taste of his lips on mine that was still hanging on.
All of sudden, a picture of Calum playing beer pong from tonight appeared in my mind and only that was a thing that ruined this moment. It happened too quickly...
I felt tears watering my eyes again. I don't know why I was acting so emotional about it, other days I would just ... stop thinking and try to concentrate on something else.
“Thanks again.” I said with shaky voice. I bite my bottom lip, trying to hold back tears.
As soon as Luke noticed my face, he gloomed.
“Is there anything wrong? Goddamn it, I knew I shouldn't have done...”
Luke's adorably tone of voice plus his apologizing face mixed with disturbance made me giggle.
“No, it's not you, I swear! It's the alcohol.”
I love having this excuse for everything I've felt this evening. Even though it was truly just an excuse and it had nothing done with reality.
“Luke?”
“Yes?”
“Would you spend this night with me, please? I don't want to be alone.”
He stayed silent for a while, only so that he could put on the widest smile I've seen.
“Sure.”