Twilight of Shepherd and Calamity

Ch29 Escape

A dream is both virtual and reality, it is the image, voice, mind, and sense formed in the brain base on experiences and feelings. It is the extension of reality, it is the reflection of our true ego. No matter how imaginary it is, there is a solid base. Therefore, people can't hide their true selves in the mental world.

That's why Eleanor chose to enter Velvet's mind world when she saw Velvet is at the edge of hellionizing, it is the way to find the cause or a way to talk. That is also the reason why Eleanor is trying to stop Velvet in the first place.

She understands it is a correct action, yet it is not the right action to take in such a pathetic state. One's appearance in the mind world can hardly be a lie and Eleanor saw the woman before her horribly beaten, wounds present all over her body and her left arm is lost. Such mental status reminded Eleanor about the moment in the earthpulse, Velvet giving up all hope, desperately fell and sat on the ground, admitting all the crimes she committed and be willing to be eaten by Innominat.

"I have to die." It is the sentence she never expected from Velvet at that time.

Velvet was trying to ignore everything hurt her to move forward before that, it made Eleanor felt it is heartless and inhuman of Velvet being a daemon being to get through all the things so fast.

However, the fact is that Velvet just ignored herself on her way of vengeance, ignoring herself from further mentally broken down while all the pain truly accumulated deeply and heavily on her. It is never the pain a normal person can bear, and to Velvet, she never saw herself a human and her heart already broken so she keeps ignoring it. The result of ignoring the pain is the wound be wide opened by the enemy when she finally received a critical mental attack from the presence of Innominat in the image of her little brother.

Eleanor was shocked at that time, being unable to help her, and she can't let this happen again. It is to help people in the first place to become the Shepherd after Velvet's sacrifice. She can't ignore the one in front of her who needs help.

By the fact Velvet is hellionizing, the malevolence may cause her to lose her mind, her memory, taking 'herself' away from her gradually until the last perseverance the only thing left in her mind. Eleanor has seen many cases like this that the hellion forgot what caused it became one and forgot its name and became a mindless beast that loyal to their 'perseverance in the first place'. It may not be that bad for Velvet by her strong will, but she can't allow a possibility of it.

Eleanor wanted to help her friend, but she could not do much, her aid of purification flame won't sustain Velvet's state long if Velvet doesn't notice the problem. Velvet will need a true solution for herself which could only be found by herself. It is pointless if she isn't relying on others but endures and encloses herself.

Therefore Eleanor thought of stopping Velvet even if she has to fight her again or cut down her limbs in the mind world. No way to let her go destroying herself when she has already sacrificed once. That is a must to stop her as a friend.

Yet, she is defeated by Velvet's resolution. She thought after being a Shepherd, being a seraph can change something about herself but it is not, after 1500 years, she lost to the same person again.

Doesn't matter if she is a daemon, a seraph or a human. The woman before her lived much shorter than her now but she is still stronger than her even in such state. Eleanor didn't even feel wrong with the fact that she loses again but she is feeling helpless for not being able to stop Velvet. Maybe it is because some part in her hind thinking Velvet is right because she feels sorry to Velvet that she can't protect Maotelus in that time. Now she lost to Velvet and once again being her technical servant, she will help Velvet regardlessly.