Twilight of Shepherd and Calamity

Ch 49 - For the kindness I received

Ch 49 - For the kindness I received

VELVET POV

Once, I was very angry, being incompetent, being played in this world, and I should be outraged for my failure to protect the people around me. Like a shell, filled with hatred, self-loathing, and responsibility. When the goal is completed, I no longer need to live, I used to think so. But some people tell me that some people will be sad because of this, some people are waiting for me, some people say that I just don't have enough courage to live anymore. I survived time and time again under the favor of these nosy people. I think, I still can't hate this world, because, in this world, I met these people.

Standing here at the moment, I saw the man who once made me angry--Tartarus. When invading his base system and liberating the prisoners, I probably expected that he would find us and meet us soon. It may be a lucky encounter at the last level but not in the initial stage instead.

His light and unruly confident expression made me think Everything may still be within his expectations. It is his vicious interest to destroy the opponent when the victim thinks he is about to achieve his goal. Tartarus looks over here with a suspicious smile.

What makes him hate everything in the world so extreme? I think it's just because he didn't realize that he was loved.

Everything has been suspicious and unpleasant since I arrived on this floor. The surroundings of this space became the Scarlet night in my memory. The nightmare-like memories suddenly came to mind. On that night, my brother-in-law protected me and told me not to give up. On another crimson night, he pierced my brother's body and sacrificed him to the forbidden Empyrean. Having failed to prevent everything from happening, I was cut off and turned into a therion. I was kept in the dark and started an inhuman life imprisoned for three years. Crimson Night is like a nightmare in my life, things become like this and it is indispensable that Tartarus captured Sorey and Edna on Crimson Night. If he hadn't done this at the beginning, I would let myself die, and I won't fight him, we would not have any cross, and I would die as an unknown traveler in a foreign land when the era has nothing to do with me.

This despicable man seemed to know my past from the earthpulse through the Earthen Historia. He did not see all of it, since once he thought that I would become his companion. The Crimson Night scene that appeared here may have been done deliberately by him. The Crimson Night was a nightmare turning point in life for me and him. From then on, I embarked on the path of becoming a Lord of Calamity, and he lost everything as a human being and started to hate human beings. We also hate something, but the biggest difference should be what we feel. I hated when I was betrayed because of my deep love. His reason should be that he thought he didn't get any rewards for his efforts. So as long as he knows that his efforts are being seen, can he weaken his hatred? I'm afraid it's very difficult. After all, it's hard to accept something completely contrary to your perception.

Although the entire venue can see the red sky and the moon outside, I don't feel that it is like an outdoor element. There is no fresh air in the space where noise and breeze do not exist. It is obvious that we are walking down from the control room but we can't see the ceiling. Alleged that this scene is a false existence.

"You finally escaped from the collar and then you came back. Are you missing me? My dear hound." He sneered at our existence as if unchanged.

"How is it possible. I'm here---" As soon as the words reached my throat, I abruptly stopped the word and swallowed it back into my stomach. Before I say anything, I must think, there is no need to irritate the opponent now, it will only make the situation worse at this moment. Being unable to fight(or say I don't get permission to fight), I must be more careful if I want to live in an unfavorable situation.