I'm not a complacent person,
Faithful to the fullest to someone who deserve it,
The teacher gave a test and I'm the one who curved it,
And if you men still don't cherish shit you're a time waister,
Controlled by your past ex's whom you hurt made you hate her,
And I'm a good target for grimy sex with no strings attached,
Used like a toilet to shit in and blow out a match,
Dating for a commitment is like raising an egg to watch it hatch,
But it's like,
Every time I become sober and stop smoking pot the devil give me a little reason to,
The depression is overbearing men is making me sick,
Cause you and you don't see in me what I see in you,
I don't know if it's the sobriety talking,
Cause it's the morning after an answered important question,
That became a life lesson to not let anyone or anything,
Make you have anxiety attacks and come before you and your dreams,
I want to team up with the people that I hurt and have a meeting with em,
Ask them was it really me and tell the one I loved the most that I've been feaning for them....
What a day that will be,
Like hippies roll tree,
Let minds be free please,
Yearning for their bitch ass lame excuses,
Fucking me playing like we exclusive,
Without heart your dick was useless,
I can't feel anything except for clueless,
And yo man this information wasn't rhetorical,
Do you like me-are you bored I just wanna know,
Cause being in the dark is only for sniffing blow,
And I don't do that shit,
That's why I use poetry as an outlet from that smoke and spit,
Somebody pray for intervention cause I'm terribly bound,
By wanting to wake up in the morning to a good morning from a loving man,
I'll get it one day but when I try the farther I get from him,
I need to stay on my knees instead of burying my head in my phone,
Texting back people that can't even call,
I'm not that important to fall-for,
For the morning after invisible sex just makes you want it more,
And maybe if you see me not kissing your tush a bit would make me appreciate my own tranquility,
And I'd rather be in a church praying than at dinner or any other facility,
Just wanted to know if you were feeling me,
Anxiety attacks and confusion is the death of me,
But I still belong,
Keep swinging my legs back and forth and carry on,
Walk down everyday the same path next to a beach the same way,
And become complacent for a fucking change,
One day I'll have a "significant other" with his feelings for me and vice versa will feel the same,
No more dating games,
No more rearrangements and fake engagements,
No more fake I like you statements,
In all honesty pushing me closer to tree,
Got a new place damn near still can't be happy,
Drove to school in a new whip still can't be happy,
Got a mom and pop still alive still crying for pappy,
Wanted to stay a virgin till marriage but still "overlapping",
You see, my dreams got more darker when I stopped smoking pot,
My love life completely stopped when I stopped smoking pot,
Stopped getting on my knees when I used to pray a lot,
Crazy commission checks slowed down by the devil,
Momma bills eating up all my money,
It's funny how when you do something with your life you always find the funds to spend elsewhere,
It's funny how when you meet someone you really like you show your caught feelings for them to tell you that they don't care,
It's funny how in a house full of kids a silver spoon is equal to a plastic spork to silverware,
I feel like I try to do something to run into a circle in the middle of nowhere,
I woke up from smoking pot and noticed, that all my life had diminished,
And all my song birds had blemished,
My roses had finished,
The old became older and the new became dead,
Seems like the morning after pill went strait to my head,
Swollen middle parts and don't remember why or how thy hickey got on my neck did someone's cellphone capture?
I bet my guilt trip made me cry the morning after.
