Foster Kids

Cherry

We sit in silence. Hailey has all her friends next to her. I decided to text Jacob and Ally. Not max and Garry. I didn't wan't to get to uncomfortable. I start a group chat.

Me: Hey, guys my foster parents got in a car Accident... They didn't make it. I'm at the station on walnut and eighth street can you come?
I need friends!

Jacob: OMG! I'm on my way!

Ally: Oh gosh no! Jacob I need a ride!

Jacob: OMW!

I sit for about 15 minutes. Not focusing on anything. I stare into the ableist. Not even noticing I have my headphones in and i'm listening to how he loves us by David Crowder and I was singing along. I look over at Hailey. Only being able to focus on her. She's clapping and singing with me. I take one ear bug out and give it to Hailey. I want to smile I need to smile but it's almost impossible.

We realize what just happened to our parents once again and brake down in tears. The wave of emotions were powerful. Each tear that fell made me sadder. But, I know up in heaven God is holding a big jar of every tear I've shed.

I run out side needing space. I'm not able to see anything. It smells moist and I feel water falling from the sky and landing on me. I wipe my eyes being able to see. but, it's still blurry. The lights illuminated like it does when you cry. The rain falling on me and i'm crying harder then ever. I didn't want to be separated from Hailey and I really didn't want to go to another family. This family abused me. Hated me. The only upside was Hailey being my best friend and going to this new school where I got my first boyfriend and really good friends. That I couldn't live without. The pain was just too much. Having my mom die, my dad leaving me to a family who abused me, and now my foster parents died. How am I supposed to do this? How am I suppose to go to a whole new family without Hailey and probably be moved to a different school. "Why God? Why? Why did you put me through this Why? Why does everyone I love have to die? Why did Dad leave me? Why did you let me be abused? Why do I have to be separated from Hailey? Why do I have to go to a whole new school? How am supposed to to this? God why? Why?" I yelled up at the sky as water falls on my face. I hear foot steps behind me. I look. it's Hailey. She sits down next to me and starts to pray. Not yell at God like me. But, pray. Pray for courage, for mercy, grace, and for strength. She looks at me and says "You saved me." Just three words and I new the answers to all my questions. The rain starts to poor harder and harder. i use to enjoy rainy days they were beautiful and fun now I'm going to be reminded of everything I've lost. A car pulls up and Ally, Max, Garry, and Jacob come out. I jump up and run to Jacob. I hug him tight he kisses my forehead. I let go and run to hug Ally. My best friend. I hug Max his big muscle arms wrapped around me tight. he says "hi." as a tear falls from his cheek. I look at Garry "Can I hug you?" I ask. he nods. I run up to him and wrap my arms around his neck in a big hug. I let go and Garry walks next to ally and grabs her hand. "When did this happen?" I ask waving my finger around there hands. They both smile and ally says "Just now." Garry smiles at her. I look at max and he's still slightly crying. We walk over to Hailey. Who, is still praying and sit down next to her. The rain poor on us while we sit, pray, and cry.

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