Abuse | Taekook

9

"What the fuck! They can't just leave us here!" Seokjin complained angrily.

The 5 boys were standing outside of the club, looking around for Jungkook's missing car. "Call an Uber Namjoon." Jimin said with a profuse amount of frustration.

 Namjoon huffed before pulling out his phone and opening the Uber app.

"30 minutes?!" Hoseok yelled with utter disbelief after looking over Namjoon's shoulder.  He couldn't believe that the Uber they called for was so far away, what the hell.

"Oh my God, Jungkook's house isn't that far away." Jimin said suddenly as he began to walk in the direction of Jungkook's house.

They shrugged, a bit confused as to how and why Jimin knew the exact direction, yet they decided to follow him nonetheless. 

In a matter of minutes, Jungkook's house was in view.
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Jungkook gently placed the unconscious boy in bed, making sure to clean off the blood first. "I'm so sorry Tae, we can talk about this when you wake up." Jungkook whispered as he pulled the covers over the older boy.

A constant ringing from the doorbell startled Jungkook, making him hurry out the door. "Sorry! I didn't mean to forget you guys." Jungkook said, feeling humiliated for acting like a dumbass.

"You should be, I had to walk like 10 miles." Yoongi said grumpily as he made his way upstairs.

"Where are you going?" Jungkook said, Taehyung was upstairs and unconscious.

"Too see Taehyung, he left so soon. I just wanted to say goodbye before Jimin and I leave." Yoongi said in-between heaves as he climbed the stairs.

Shit! "Don't wake him up, please he told me he didn't feel good and that he wanted to be left alone." Jungkook pleaded, he didn't want them to know. They would definitely call the police on him. 

Yoongi narrowed his eyes at Jungkook but obliged, "okay fine. But if he wants to see us and we are not here, it's your fault." Yoongi said as he intertwined his hand with Jimin's and left the house.

After that, everyone was silent. "Well, I need to get going. Goodnight." Namjoon said before grabbing Jin's hand and walking out the door. 

The house was now silent, the sound of water dripping onto the bottom of the sink annoyed Jungkook so he decided to go to sleep. He made his way upstairs, stopping right where he was when he heard a heartbreaking sob coming from Taehyung's and Jungkook's shared bedroom. 

Jungkook opened the door slowly, revealing a puffy-eyed Taehyung who had a fluffy blanket wrapped around his body. The sound of the door squeaking startled Taehyung, making him look up at Jungkook's regretful stare. "P-please d-don't hurt m-me.." was all that Taehyung could muster up with his remaining energy. 

Jungkook felt a powerful wave of guilt wash over him, causing his heart to ache painfully. Jungkook shouldn't have done it, he shouldn't have hit the poor boy out of jealousy, he couldn't stand seeing Taehyung like this, hiding himself away from Jungkook, terrified.

 "Tae. I'm so sorry i-" but he was interrupted a loud slap across the face. "Don't you fucking dare act like you care Jungkook. I thought we were okay, I thought you trusted me like you used to. I thought you loved me again, but all it took for you to lash out all of your jealousy onto me was a misunderstanding. I don't think I can go on Jungkook; you've hurt me so much mentally and psychically. Please. just leave, find someone who you can trust and love, find someone who is worthy of your time, because I am not right for you, I am a burden to you, I know I am so don't deny it. I love you Jungkook, but this isn't working." The last couple of words came out as a shaky whisper.  

"No! Taehyung I am not leaving you. You mean so much to me, you are like my other half, we are meant to be together. I wouldn't be here today if it weren't for you Tae," Jungkook stopped to wipe the hot tears off his cheeks. Taehyung started to cry when he heard the nickname,  Tae. "I'll get help, but please just don't leave me. I love you so much Tae." Jungkook whispered as tried to reach out for Taehyung. 

He caught a glimpse of Taehyung's wrist for a split second, but that one second caused Jungkook's heart to drop to his feet. "Let me see your wrist." Jungkook said shakily. Those four words caused Taehyung to mentally panic. 

"Wait why? Nothing is wrong Jungkook, I'm fine." Taehyung said as he hid his arms underneath the blanket. 

He couldn't let anyone know that he was cutting, let alone suicidal. Jungkook wasn't having it one bit, "Taehyung! Show me your damn arm." Jungkook said louder, basically pleading with the eye contact he made with Taehyung.

Jungkook grabbed Taehyung's wrist, pulling the over-sized sleeve upwards. There were 4 healed scars looking back at him, but the other cuts looked fresh. "Why are you doing this?" Jungkook asked, grabbing Taehyung's waist and setting him on his lap. 

There was no response, only the sound of Taehyung sobbing.

 "I have nobody else to talk to about how I feel, Jungkook. This is how I can feel something other than what I feel all the time." The older boy finally spoke, wiping his tears away before a continuous flow of tears fell down his face once more.  

"Why didn't you tell me?" Jungkook said before attempting to kiss him to give him the comfort he needed yet was pushed away.  

"I didn't think you would care." Taehyung said quietly, afraid to see Jungkook's reaction. 

Jungkook frowned. The realization overcame both individuals. Jungkook realized how he messed up so overwhelmingly badly, almost to the point of Taehyung's own destruction of self. 

It came down to the point where Taehyung wasn't even sure whether he loved Jungkook or not, or if he needed to stay due to the familiarity of it all. 

Taehyung then ended up breaking down once more, his small form shaking between sighs and silent sobs. 

Jungkook then made sure he was able to wrap his arms around the older boy, he needed to with his entire soul. 

All that Taehyung could do was cry, cry endlessly and to the point of no end. He felt hopeless, so confused between two everlasting battles between different sides of himself. He wanted to love Jungkook, he almost felt destined to be with him for a lifetime, or for even multiple.

 Yet, he wasn't sure how much longer he could hold onto the delusions of everything suddenly going back to normal. 

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This was sad, how did I manage not to cry while writing this? 

also sorry for the short chapter.