"I hate you, Eddie Kaspbrak."
He can still hear Richie vividly say those words to him. It was still fresh in his mind. Those words – though short – hurt him deeply. The pain and heartbreak it left was enough to last for a lifetime.
Eddie loved Richie a lot. If he could've found a way to not move away from Derry and convince his mom that he was never going to communicate with The Losers ever again, (which he wasn't actually going to do), then maybe, just maybe, everything could've turned out all right. Maybe they could've been still together, maybe they could've ran away – maybe they could've been happy. But of course, none of that could ever happen; because life sucks.
The moment Eddie and Sonia moved away from Derry and arrived at their new house – if he could even call it that – it was far from being welcoming at all. After all, his mom didn't exactly earn enough money to buy a nice house – let alone a decent one. The walls were painted in an ugly shade of white. It felt more of like a hospital rather than a home. The floor was covered with wood (probably older than his mom) which creaked at every step he took. A pungent smell was also present everywhere around the house. All in all, the building which he can't believe he was going to call home, sucked ass.
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Eddie couldn't sleep and it was slowly making him insane. It had been like that for a couple of years. Every night, he would be lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling and wondering why. Why can't he just forget about Richie? Why can't he move on like a normal person? Why can't he have a normal life? Why did everything have to be so hard and complicated? Why him? Out of all the people in the world – why? Did he even deserve everything that was happening to him? Did he really do something so vile and bad that it caused his life to crumble and fall apart before him?
"I miss you, Richie." Eddie whispered to himself, his voice breaking in the middle. Salty tears continuously ran down his face, making the pillow beneath his head damp. "I hope you do too."
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Hola! Sorry this chapter is super short. I'll try and make the next one longer. I'm also sorry if there are any grammatical errors! Feel free to tell me so I can correct it.
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