Rough Love (bxb)

Do I Trust Him?

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Harvey pushed his door open, letting me in. His walls were lined with pictures and funnily enough, drawings, mostly models and a few others I didn't know. His drawings were something else. Every single tiny detail on one piece of paper. His desk was covered in pencils and artbooks.

I walked over to inspect but before I could, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back.

"You can't look at them," he said bluntly.

"Why not?" 

"Because you can't." 

I sighed.

I had been wishing he wasn't going to hide things from me. Ever since he told me he was gay, I had been getting this excruciating pain in my chest. It killed. But I knew what it was and I had to avoid it and ignore it. I had only met him not long ago, how could I possibly trust him yet?

He started getting his books out, preparing to carry on with our project. I seemed to notice he had gone blunt with me. 

"What's up?" I asked cautiously.

"Nothing."

"Then why, ever since we got to you house, you've said very little words to me. We are meant to be project partners, not enemies. If you don't want to work with me, tell me. I'd rather know than be totally ignor-" And with that, he cut me off.

"What the hell are you on about Dylan? Of course I want to work with you. Just not today and if you're going to start accusing me, go ahead so but never make me out to be the bad one. It's not easy being forced into a school where you don't know anyone at all." 

I stood up, grabbed a pen and paper and put down my number.

" If you need me call me or whatever but don't expect me to be around when you're pissy to me," I said, I swiftly walked out.

Now I can say I've seen the moody side of him.

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I took a slow walk home, trying to get ahold of my anger Harvey rose up on me. He can't just be like that to me. I want to pass this course and he is delaying that because he doesn't want to do it today. Such a shit excuse.

I opened the front door and immediately went to my room. I got undressed and slid under my covers. I don't know why I was getting so worked up about this. It's stupid.

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