The Size of our hearts

22

"Neveah I'm not going to ask you again, Why are you still here!?" My mo said as she stood up and walked over to the bars as she gripped my hands. 

"We have a plan, we can get you out of here, you and Jafaar" I laughed lightly as I pulled my hands away. 

"No" She muttered coldly as my smile faded slowly.

"What?" I asked quietly as I felt the guard's eyes on me.

My mom waited  for him to look away before answering. "No I will not let this go on any further, you need to get yourself home before you get yourself killed" She said frantically.

"Mom you don't understan-" I urged on.

"Neveah that is quite enough, you have to go home , you don't know how dangerous these people are" She said as she grabbed my arm through the bars.

"No, I'm sorry mom but I can't leave you hear, I can't let myself do that and you can't actually expect me to do that" I explained, flustered.

She looked at me sadly as I pulled my arm away and walked back over to Hamid and Jafaar. 

"Hey guys" I said as they looked up at me. Hamid looked at my mom before looking back at me. He creased his eyebrows and looked at me questionably, I pretended not to notice. 

"Okay um, the Guard looks suspicious Jafaar, so Hamid and I will come back tommorow." 

Jafaar simply nodded. Hamid stood up and dusted his Kaftan. I walked out and stood in the corridor as I waited for Hamid to catch up. 

He walked out and handed Jafaar's cell key back to the guard. We walked down the hall in silence until we were far away from the guard. 

"Neveah" Hamid said thoughtfully.

"yeah" I replied quickly and looked over at him. 

He took my hand and kept his other hand in his pocket. 

"I know what you're going to say" I said as I looked at his hand and gave it a little squeeze.

"Your mom was right earlier, Neveah, you need to leave, It's not safe" He said as he rubbed his thumb over my knuckles. 

"And if you listened long enough, you know that I'm not leaving my mom here, I don't car-"

"Neveah" He said calmly as he interrupted me.

"I'm not asking you to leave, just be careful, If I lost you I don't know what I would do" He said as he shook his head slowly.

"Okay" I said calmly even thought I could feel my heart pounding on my ribcage, begging to get out.

"Okay" He said smugly, He knew the effect he had on me and I knew the effect I had on him. 

"Let's go to the Garden" Hamid said as he turned me in the direction of the staircase. 

*****

"Okay, Hamid I do not have any access to the internet, asking for a computer or wifi might make them suspicious or something so I think you should take the flash drive and send the content on it to every popular foreign newspaper out there"  I said as I looked in his eyes, I was searching for doubt because I had no confidence in my idea, but he seemed to agree with everything I said. 

I finished narrating my plan and looked over at him, waiting for his response. He just sat there on the bench staring at me. 

"What?" I asked 

"Nothing" He said casually but I could tell by the way he bit his lip that he was thinking about something. 

"What're you thinking about?" I said quietly as I chipped at my nail polish and looked up at him. 

He sighed, looked down at his hands and laughed sarcastically. "My mom, I wish that when all this ends, If it ends, I wish she'd be with me, finally happy that she can be free from this with her son"

I stood up from my bench and walked over to him, I sat down behind him, "Your mom should have never left, a mother should never leave her child and I know it's not much, but when this is all over and it will end, I want you to know that I'll be here"

He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer and I could perceive his oud scent, I nestled my head into the space between his jawline and his collarbone. He kissed me on the forehead, and I could feel his muscles tense up as he did so. 

"It's not much, It's more than enough" He said simply.

Then we sat there for the next hour talking about random stuff, and I enjoyed getting to know Hamid as just a 17 year old boy, talking to him made me forget about my issues for a while.

I watched his eyes light up as he talked about his hobbies and I couldn't get enough of him.

I was deeply in-like.  

.