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There could be thousand people looking at her but she would only stare at his smile.
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The heart wants what it wants and Arden her heart wanted nothing more than to have Shawn his arms wrapped around her so she could feel safe again. It had taken her days to get the things that played in her head out and make it into a new dancing routine. Her biggest show of her life was going to happen and the person she loves the most was not going to be here, Shawn was somewhere in Europe playing some shows while enjoying his life.
Arden knew she had taken a lot of things that had happened way too personal, she thought Shawn was over her when he didn't call her for days but he made sure that she got a little text every single day. Most of the things he did happened in the night when she was sleeping since she needed as much sleep as she could get for the show tonight.
Shawn hadn't said anything to her for the show making her overthink it all over again, she knew she had to trust him that he was going to call her for good luck but the thing is that she was way too insecure for this. She had taken therapy sessions to make sure her mental health would go better, it was going to be hard for sure but she wanted nothing more than to trust Shawn fully whenever he is not around because a relationship is based on that.
Arden had not a lot of experience when it came to relationships since every guy that did like her had not even the same power Shawn has over her, she knew that if Shawn would ever break up with her she would feel miserable for days maybe even weeks. Shawn had found a way in her stone cold heart that made her scared in the first place but right now it was something that she loves the most about him, he knew about all her imperfections and he loved her the same way as he did in the beginning.
The hardest part about the relationship she had with Shawn are all the rumours that are spreading around whenever he did something, he got seen with another girl and they took it all out of proportion. Arden knew that the girl was on Shawn his team but that didn't make her less jealous, she knew that she could trust Shawn but she wasn't super sure of herself all the time.
Especially when all the comments of the fans come in telling her that it all is true and not hearing from Shawn did make her doubt for a second but she needed to talk to Shawn about it first before coming to conclusions. She had learnt that she needs to know his side of the story to before jumping to conclusions that could tear something so special apart by a rumour that had been said by someone who loves to break people apart.
Relationships are very hard but if you really want something to work out than you do everything for it even if it means living with constant hate in your life. Arden knew that the hate will keep coming but she started to see something good in it, she knew that she had time to feel better in her body by reading other comments, the ones that make her smile grow bigger. Being surrounded with people that love and care about her as she the person she is, not perfect but trying hard to become someone who is happy whenever life is treating her well. It was going to be a hard job to do but she was ready to be the happy Arden again maybe she could finally feel good.
