The New Girl

Chapter 28

I'm not sure why but a few days after my fight with Robin I started having nightmares. I was always fighting someone as I was trying to get to a crying child. It was usually some variations of Robin lookalikes and then all of a sudden when I got passed one battle my next opponent I guess you could call it, was another person who looked just like Robin again. I didn't know it at the time but I guess I was tossing and turning and talking out loud in my sleep. Loud enough to wake Regina up. She started shaking my shoulders to try and wake me. Luckily it did. That dream was scary and I was sweaty and breathing heavy. "Emma my love. What's happening? Are you ok?"  I shake my head to try and figure out what was actually going on. These dreams I've been having have seemed so real. "Emma can you hear me?"  She shakes my shoulders again and looks me deep in the eyes. "Regina?"  Her name comes out as a question. "Yes sweetheart it's me. Everything is fine. It was just a bad dream. I'm here with you my love. Your safe now".  She kisses my lips to try and convince me, but something in the back of my mind tells me I'm not safe and that she's probably not either. I try to calm down and my breathing starts to become normal again. She pretty much has her legs and arms wrapped around me to comfort me and asks. "Are you feeling better my love?"  I just nod and close my eyes because I'm upset with myself for lying to her. I'm not ok. That dream scared the shit out of me. I didn't realize it but my body started to shake because I began crying. "Oh God Emma, what's happening?  What can I do?"  She kisses my lips then puts her head on my chest and she holds me as close as she can. "I'm so sorry Regina. I don't want to hurt you".  I say as tears fall. "My love everything is fine. We are fine. Come on wake up fully and then we can go downstairs and have some tea ok?"   I nod slowly. "Yes please. I love the way you make tea".   "Good. Then I will make it just for you".   "Ok. Thank you. I think I'm ok".  Regina helps wipe the tears from my face and we hold each other for a little while longer. She has her head on my chest when she asks. "Are you ready for some tea my love?"   "Yes babe. I'd really like that".  We both slowly get out of bed. I don't think I've ever felt so awful in my whole life and that's even with growing up in foster care. We go down to the kitchen. I take a seat at our small table in the kitchen as Regina starts the water for the tea. My elbows are on the table and my fingers are at my hairline and my palms are covering my eyes. What the hell is happening to me?  A few moments go by and I feel a hand on my shoulder and it startles me so I jump. "I'm sorry my love. The tea is ready". I take a few deep breaths and look at my fiancé and give a half smile. "Thanks babe".  Regina puts the cup in front of me on the table and then she sits down with her cup. I see her take a sip. A little over a minute later she clears her throat and sweetly asks me. "Emma. Are you able to talk to me now about the dream you just had?" I let out out a deep sigh and nod my head. "I'm sorry that I woke you babe. I've actually been having these weird dreams for a little while now, but lately they've been getting stranger and scarier.  I dreamt that l..... I don't really know, it feels almost like I was playing a video game but it was real. I was someone who had to go save a child. That's the thing that bothered me the most. In my dream I can hear a child crying and asking me for help". I have to stop speaking because I start crying. I gather my self and continue. "Sorry. So I hear this crying and I try so hard to get to where they are but I have to fight people along the way and most of them look like Robin or variations of him and I have to fight them all to get to this crying child. Regina I'm scared. What if I can't get over this thing that Robin did?  Our baby is gone and I can't bring him back".  I just started crying so Regina wraps her arms around me and holds me tight. "It's ok my love. I understand. We will get through this together".  I nod and she kisses the side of my head. "I love you Emma. I will always help you through anything". She gets up and sits on my lap. She wraps her arms around me and holds me close. "Thank you babe. I need you so much right now. These dreams scare the crap out of me and I don't know what to do". She pulls back a little and kisses my lips. "Sweetheart why don't we call Dr. Hopper later this morning ? I have no doubt that he will be able to help us with this. He's known you for so long, I know he will be right there for you as will I my love". I look her right in the eyes and see nothing other than love. "Thank you babe. You are the only one who has ever believed in me. I'm so amazed every single day that you still actually love me and that you want a life with me. I don't know what I did to get the good luck horse shoe on my side but I'll take it if it means that you will always be by my side". She smiles and kisses me. We never even finished our tea. It's an early Friday morning and Regina sends a message to her personal assistant to tell her that she's taking the day off and will not available for the weekend unless it's an absolute emergency. She also left instructions to call the Sheriff and tell him that I, Deputy Swan was not available until further notice.  "Can we go back to bed my love?  I'm still tired and I know you must be also".  I nod and she stands as do I. We put our cups in the sink and then we head upstairs. We get in bed and snuggle into each other and eventually fall asleep.