stop hurting me | han seung woo

five

i quickly took my vitamins to avoid any conversation with seungwoo. my shoulder accidentally brushed against his when i was on my way to my room. i kept my head hung low as i was looking through instagram posts to distract me from making any sort of eye contact with him. as soon as i reached my room, i gently plopped my phone onto my bed and jumped onto it, in a star form. my head was squashed into my bed and i kicked my feet.

"what's wrong" eunsang asked, brushing his teeth.

"honestly, everything"

i got up and took my toothbrush from minhee's hand since he had gotten it ready for me with toothpaste in it. i tried to explain to them what seungwoo and hayoung said about me at the cafe but i gave up as they didn't know what i was saying because of my toothbrush. after about four minutes of brushing and flossing, i retold them what happened.

while i was telling them, there were a few knocks on the door that interrupted me. minhee, who was the closest to the door, got up and opened it. speaking about the devil, the person behind the door happened to be seungwoo. great. i rolled my eyes and my hands began to fidget.

"can i talk to y/n?"

my eyes lifted up from the floor, definitely not out of excitement, right?
no one said anything, we just looked at him in bewilderment. it was silent for about three minutes until he started walking into my room, in my direction.
he took my arm and dragged me out the room.

"what do you think you're doing?"

"you never listen! stop being a baby and listen for once"

"fine"

we stared at each other for a bit, waiting for him to say something.

"why are you with wooseok? are you guys dating?"

"no why the fuck do you care? even if i was, it's not you're business to know"

"it fucking is my business because you're not allowed to be with anyone"

"excuse me? who are you to choose who i can date or not?"

"you're fucking ugly and annoying y/n! no one wants to be with you. i'm just giving them a favour by making sure you aren't getting ins with them. even your friends are fake, they don't like you either"

"sorry what?"

i could process what he had just told me. my voice began to waver and my eyes were on the verge on letting out tears. no, i can't be weak like this. i glare at him, without knowing my nose becoming red. he seemed shocked by my expressions and the words that had just came out of his mouth. before he could say anything i turn around and head to my room. he also turns his back away from me and gradually disappears from my sight.

just as i'm about to turn the doorknob to my room, a tear falls down. i stop and go to the bathroom furthest away from everyone to avoid anyone. i lock the door behind me and cry my heart out, trying not to hit the wall from both anger and sadness. my back slides down, against the door, falling onto the ground, with my palms covering my face. i try not to make any sound but i know that they'll probably hear me.

i hear a few knocks on the door by my brother but i don't open it. i didn't want anyone to see me like this. after i hear him start yelling my name, i quickly wash my face and open it. the moment he sees me, he wraps his arms around me. i don't know what happened but as soon as he did, i couldn't help but sob all over again. i know, how stupid of me.
i bury my head into his chest, with my tears socking his black t-shirt.

"c-can i sleep with you tonight?"

"of course, i'll get the boys to move to another room"

i cover my face as we walk into his room while he tells seungwoo to go into the living room and dongpyo into mine. seungwoo stares at me, without saying a word. all he has is a blank expression on his face.

seungwoo

i didn't realise how my words heavily affected her. it wasn't that bad, right? i don't know why but there was this sense of hatred towards her and when it was created because truthfully, we used to be so close.

"why are you here?" yohan taps me on the shoulder.

"i got kicked out"

"why is that?"

"y/n was crying"

"WHAT? WHEN? WHY? HOW?" hyeongjun chimes in.

"i-i don't know" i stutter, pretending to not know that i'm the reason why i made her cry. like always. the boys rush up to seungyoun's room but i tell them not to and so they don't. "just sleep"

minhee

that fucking jerk. i swear he is the only reason why she cries. she used to be so positive like seungyoun but he just had to ruin her happiness as soon as hayoung came into the picture. i wonder why he started dating hayoung out of the blue. of course, she used to always try to get his attention but he never liked her before. he would always brush her off and complain about that bitch.
everyday she would bring him lunch and a drink on the side, not knowing that he actually gave those to y/n whenever she didn't have food.

"what are you thinking so deeply about" eunsang whispers in my ear, causing me to slightly jump. i jokingly hit him in the head and just shake my head.