I need you, even if it is wrong

Chapter 4

This chapter is way longer than the rest! Hope you enjoy! ♥️♥️

I woke up to a bunch of commotion outside, so I quickly got dressed for the day.

(This is her outfit!)

I went out and saw that Andrea was still over Amy's dead body, and my dad and Daryl in a heated argument,
"I say take the shot"
"What shot?" I ask confused towards Daryl.
"That girls a ticking time bomb." He points towards amy.
"Oh yeah, I'm with Daryl." Already knowing there fighting about that. Both my dad and mom looked at me wide eyed.
"What? She's dead. That's just a rotting corpse that can possibly kill her."
"Just leave that poor girl alone!" My mom yells walking away. Daryl smirks at me for taking his side, I give a sly smile back. After all that we went our ways, I walked over to Shane who was digging graves.

Shane's pov

I'm here digging graves when I see Harper walking over to help. My heart instantly flips seeing her in her outfit on how gorgeous she looks, but I push that feeling away. This can't happen. No matter what I need to push her away.
"Hey Shane.." Harper says picking up a shovel.
"Hi." I say back instantly regretting the harsh tone I used.
"Why are you acting like that? You've been acting strange since u kissed! It's like your trying to avoid me!"
"Maybe I am!" I yell throwing the shovel down.
Harper then looks like she could shatter any second, I hurt her.
"What are you saying? You regret kissing me? That meant nothing to u? That u just used me for a kiss?" She asks hurt in her tone.
"Yes. That kiss meant nothing to me. It was just a spur of the moment." I say way to harshly for my liking towards her.
I start to walk away I until I hear her angelic like voice just barely above a whisper,
"It meant everything to me." With her voice cracking towards the end.
That right there broke me, hearing how much pain I caused her , but it's for the best, her dad will kill me, her mom is trying to get me even though her husband is back, we live in a shitty world why make it shittier by being with my best friends daughter? I can't be with her, I have to avoid her as much as possible even if it means hurting her more.
But if I'm being honest.... that kiss meant everything to me, I'm never been so sure before but I have very strong feelings for that girl.

Harpers pov

After that talk with Shane I was silently crying finishing digging the graves by myself when Glenn came over.
"Hears some water, looks like you need it"
"Thanks Glenn "
"Are you ok?"
"Nah I'm not"
"What happened ?" Asked Glenn.
"Shane." I said already tearing up.
Glenn just hugs me tightly. I'm grateful for Glenn. He's my bestfriend, and I'm his. There's no feelings Involved it's just pure friendship and to be honest this is what I need right now.
"It's ok Harp." He whispered pulling away as everyone came up to bury our loved ones. I then see Shane as he glances my way but Quickly adverts he's eyes. I guess he was telling the truth about it meaning nothing.
After much arguing we've decded to head to the CDC first thing tomorrow morning.

•morning•
My dad has everyone assigned car partners, he didn't have enough room for me since carol and her daughter where going with them, so I had the choice of Daryl or Shane.
"Daryl!" I yell out shocking my dad and everyone else.
"Really? You sure? You always loved car rides with Shane"
"Eh yeah but I want to ride with Daryl"
I said smiling.
I look over to Shane and see hurt all over his face, why would he be hurt ? He said it himself that kiss meant nothing and there's no feelings. Right ?
"Alright come on girly ain't got all day" Daryl said walking over to his truck.
I jumped in and Daryl instantly shot me with questions.
"So, why ride with me and not lover boy?"
"He doesn't like me like that, the kiss meant nothing to him." I said
"I'm sorry Harp"
"It's ok" I said smiling a bit at Daryl.
"Why don't ye get some rest, ye look like ye need it."
"Alright wake me when we stop or are there" I said as my eyes droop and fall to a dark slumber.
"Harp, hey Harper wake up." I hear Daryl as he shakes me lightly. I look out an it's dark, we are here.
"Daryl, this doesn't look right"
"Yeah" is all he says.
I jump out as walkings are starting to surround us my dad is yelling and screaming for whoever is in the cdc to let us in. Shane is dragging Rick. I start shooting walkings down making my way towards my mom and brother to protect them.
Before we knew it the doors open and there was a bright light shining in.
"Get your stuff and come back, once these doors are shut they aren't opening again." Daryl, Shane, t-dog Rick and I all ran back grabbing everyone's crap and running inside, once inside those doors closed and locked.
"You submit to a blood text and you can stay."
"Deal" my dad says.
Shit I hate needles, last time I got a shot I was in tears while my dad held me down my mom was talking to me an Shane holding my hand. Apparently I freaked out and the doctor had to call my dad to help cuz my mom couldn't hold on to me.
So this is just gonna be great, I said to myself rolling my eyes following everyone to the elevator. I was obviously the last one to get my blood drawn I slowly walk over in a shaking mess,
"It's ok, it'll hurt a bit"
"Yeah heard that before." I say with attitude. Shane then walks over and grabbed my hand.
"Don't worry I'm here Harp."
My heart flutters while Shane holds my hand, and says that. I see my dad nod at Shane for doing so, if only he knew.
I close my eyes and breathe in an out remembering how Shane's lips felt on mine.
"Harper, it's over." Shane said. I open my eyes and look around.
"Oh, I remember it being way worse."
"No. Your just a drama queen." My dad blurts out. I look at him shocked as everyone else laughs. I then turn to Shane to thank him but he's already walking away. What was up with him wanting to hold my hand but then not wanting to be near me at all? Ugh guys are confusing.
After dinner I decided to bunk with Daryl.
"Showers all yours Daryl." I said walking out drying my hair. I decide to go to the Rec room an see if there's any good books. As I go in there I see my mom trying to kiss Shane. And she succeeds.
"Mom! Shane!" I yell out I can't believe my mom did that, especially to my dad. How could she.
And Shane? Wow. I expected better.
"Ha-" Shane started but I stopped him. "No Shane. Don't. I get it. But mom? How can you do that to dad?"
She's in tears,
"Don't tell your daddy please ? I don't know what's gotten over me. I'm sorry."
"I won't tell him. But you will, and if you don't then I will."
"Ok, Harper I'm sorry." She says walking away leaving Shane and I alone.
"Why Shane ?"
"Harper, please I'm sorry."
"Your sorry? For what ? Kissing my mom or hurting me?"
"Both!" He yells out
"You don't know how much pain you've caused me Shane" I said.
"I didn't kiss your mom back."
"I know I saw. But it doesn't change things, you still kissed and u let her."
Shane then stared walking towards, my heart starts fluttering my stomach is doing flips as he rests his hand on the side of my face and slowly leans in. Our lips touch and it's like the world slowed. Our lips mend together perfectly, I then deepen the kiss, and Shane grabs ahold of my waste pulling me closer to him. Shane lifts me up to sit on the top of the desk as his mouth travels to my neck. I let out a gasp, as I know where this is going so slowly push him away, out of breathe. He looks me in the eyes panting for air, I rest my head against his and just hug him.
"I'm sorry for hurting you, that kiss meant everything to me, I just don't know how we can work. You father will have my head on a pike."
I giggle a little,
"I forgive you, and we can take it day by day. I understand."
Shane smiles and gives me a peck on the lips.
"Better get to bed, it's late." Shane says.
"Alright, goodnight Shane."
"Goodnight baby."
I don't think I've ever blushed so hard in my life.
I made it back to my room, Daryl was already out cold, on the bed. Figures.
I said beds mine.
Oh well, I push him into one side of the bed instead of the middle and sleep on the other side, dreaming about Shane Walsh.

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