Renesmee's story

Chapter 64 I Don't Know

Renesmee's POV:

I knew that i had lied to Esme but i really didn't want her to know that i did it, and luckily i'm a vampire now so i don't turn red when i tell lies (Yess!). I carried on with my dress until Alice and Esme came down the stairs, Esme looking t the floor and Alice's arm was round Esme's back. 

"What now?" i asked trying not to show guilt

"You know exactly whats up Nessie" Esme shot back at me

"NO i don't what the hell are you talking about if it's about your coffee table and glitter well i already told you it wasn't me!" i told her 

"Nessie stop lying you little prat" Alice said her chirpy mood dissapring 

"NO because clearly i'm not lying, i'm not like that"

"Fine i'll just call your dad Nessie he will soon find out" Esme said running towards her mobile 

"no need" i said knowing i have no way out now, but it was to late the phone was alreay ringing 

"Hi Esme what's up" my dad said cooly

"Well we have a bit of a situation with Nessie" she said running up the stairs into hers and Carlisle's room.

I never heard the rest of the conversation, but what i did know was that my dad was going to find out that i'm lying.

There was a knock at the door two minutes later Esme called "Come in Edward"

"Nessie" he called

"Yea Dad" i said in my charming and sweet voice trying to win him over

"What has happened tell me truthfully, if you don't well i will find out by reading your mind anyway" he said annoyed that he had to leave my mom in their cossy cottage.

"Dad Alice broke Esme's coffee table and i spilt the glitter" i said at least i told him part of the truth 

"Okat Nessie are you sure thats the truth i will be reading your  ind after i have hear Alice's side of the story ok.." he akes assuming that i am the one in the right

"Okay" 

He was back in 5 minutes he had obviouslybeen arguing with Alice about this i could see the anger in his face.

"Nessie you lied" he said to me sounding ashamed of his daughter.

"Errr..... ssssooorry Alice, Esme and Dad" i said that then rushed up into my dads old bedroom and locked the door behind me so he couldn't get in. I knew he would go and call Jasper on me now and Esme would probally be calling my mom to tell her what happened and Alice would probally be b**** slapping my dad and all of this is ALL my fault, whatever was happing to me it wasn't good i was changing ALOT! i didn't feel myself either, but what i did know is that ihave caused arguments arangements and damage to the furniture and Esme's, Alice's and my Dad's feelings. I was ashamed, disgusted with myself and mad at all the arguing i have and other stuff i have caused, if i killed my mom when she was human and she would still be human if i didn't kill her, i felt like smashing or killing anything in my path right now but that wouldn't help anything.

After a while of thinking somone came and knocked on my dad's bedroom door 

"Nessie please let me in" Jasper said i knew he could help me so i unbolted the door and let him in. He was probally expecting this room to be upside down, but i managed to controll myself

"Jasper" i asked 

"Yea Ness" he replied

"Can you help me" i said sounding soory for myself

"Depends your temper 'yes' what you did downstairs 'no'" he said 

"It's none of them options Jasper i have changed and i don't like it i am scared of myself and temper" i told him he looked thoughtful i could almost hear his brain working away trying to come up with a answer

"Nessie i...i don't know what has happened to you" he said backing off away from me expeting me to flip

"Jasper even your afraid of me EVERYONE IS, how do you run away from something thats part of you?" i asked 

"Ness i can't help you speak to your mom and dad and Carlisle" he told me 

"Come down stairs now Ness" i heard uncle Emmett boom 

"I think your wanted you coming?" Jasper asked me

"Might as well" i sighed

Jasper's POV:

What Nessie just told me was breathtaking i didn't realise this was even possible in vampiers i just didn't want to tell her until it's deffinate i don't want to put anymore pressure or stress on her, she been through anough in one day. When we were downstair everyone one was around Ness i tugged on Carlisles arm telling him i wanted a word.

Carlisle was as shocked as i was when he heared exactly what Ness had just told me. i didn't think even he thought it was possible. He chucked himself into his desk chair whizzed it around a couple of times then he came to a sudden jolt. He jiggled his computer mouse and away he was typing constanly the keys the only sound filling the room 'click tap tap click click'.

I started paceing the room becoming very  impaitent. 

"Jasper" Carlisle said breaking the silince in the room "I have never recorded a case like this one" he said still click and flipping over pages of files.

"So what are we going to do?" i asked 

"Well Jasper the truth is that i don't know myself" he told me whilst scrathcing the back of his head.

"Well that's just great Carlisle after one hour of reaserch you still dont know" i said huffng and puffing for i had hope he would know.

"Sorry Carlisle" i whispered walking out of his study.