Renesmee's story

Chapter 67 Weapons made of words

A/N~ This is Nessie's decision I didn't have time to create a new book so I didn't want to leave you guys in suspense so here it is her choice. Note there will be one more chapter after this. This chapter is about Nessie breaking the news to Jacob. Thank you all for reading this book it's been really enjoyable to write. Enjoy :)

Renesmee's POV:

My mind was numb with fear, sadness and doubt. My choice had to be decided no-one is making me but I feel the need to do whatever I can for my family especially my mom, she gave up her life for me and if it comes to it I'll do the same. There is one thing I have decided on though, I need a break from my family the arguments, the insignificant worrying and everyone constantly monitoring me. It's just havoc, so I have left the house in my dad's Volvo to La Push beach a refreshing and quite venue which gave me timeout from tough and stressful times. I knew I wasn't well and shouldn't be here especially late at night, but this is my place of relief. I could hear the wonderful waves crashing against the rocks and seagulls squawking, this noise beat the one I was getting at home.

Nothing makes sense. No matter how hard I think, something's still don't add up. I knew I was weak and vulnerable but what caused this sudden change in my immune system and why has it come to me having to decide on my existence? Why is it going to disturb my family's life and my Jacob?

I walked across the sand towards the rocks letting the ice cool water lap over my cream floral sandals. The sandals matched my outfit perfectly. I was wearing a floral layer me top and black faux leather leggings. Alice had chosen the outfit as always, and i quite liked it. My hair, long, wild, unruly dark curls, flew over my shoulder in the sea breeze. Moonlight guided me as I walked towards my usual spot on the rock. I lay as far back as I could and tried to find the pole star. When I was little, Jake used to tell me to make a wish. I decided I wanted to make a wish now.

"Whatever I choose please let the ones I love be safe in whatever they may do"

My eyes started to water with the thought of whatever choice I chose I couldn't please anyone. My heart was telling me to take control of my own life. Jacob was the one closest to me we went together like salt and pepper, he was my rock I could always tell him everything, his smile was dazzling which turned my stomach and made my cheek blush, just the thought of his smile made me smile. The prospect of changing his smile into an everlasting frown was truly heart breaking.

I left my thoughts wander until my eyes fluttered and couldn't stay open any longer.

I woke up in the early hours, the air was thin and cold every lungful stabbed at my chest. The rising sun was reflecting a cast of light over the sea, which resulted in a picturesque reflection over the rocky beach, it was like shimmering diamonds dancing the night away, they swayed in time that the waves moved gradually getting closer and closer up the beach. It was truly mesmerizing.

It was only then that I realised that I was still on the beach and hadn't returned home, my parents didn't even know that I went out last night. But it wasn't until then that i felt the present of Jake walking up to me.

"Hiya" I spoke my hair all matted and stiff with salty water stiffening in it position behind my shoulders as I sat up. My dress was stained and torn a little, Alice defiantly wouldn't be happy with me well nor would any of my family. I knew this was the tie to tell him what I have chosen. My heart was beating fast, faster than usual It always fluttered slightly when I was in his presence but this time it was the fear of the unknown.

"Hi, Ness" he said his voice was slightly croaky

Jacob's POV:

Nessie was gazing at the sea when I walked up to her. Her heart was beating quickly. I wanted to desperately know what she was thinking.