Renesmee's story

Chapter 66 Decisions are getting all to much

Bella's POV:

I couldn't belive what Jasper had just told me if my face could be paler and if i could cry then i would, Edward was by my side comforting me i shrugged it off stilling not forgiving him for NOT telling me.

"Bella love do you want to talk about it?" he asked me

"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME!!" i yelled in his face

"Err because i didn't want you stress anymore than you already are" he said in his sweet velvet voice i couldn't help but love.

"Okay but where is she i want to see her" i demanded

"Well she colapsed whilst she was in the woods with Jacob" Edward told me

"WHAT WHEN WAS YOU PLANNING TO TELL ME THIS EEEEDDDDDWWWAAAAAARRDDD!" i screamed in worry and fury in even more stress now!

"Bella she is with Carlisle they should be back any minute and i was wasn't going to tell you because you would find out when they came through the door" he told me in true honesty.

"Is it too hard for YOU to UNDERSTAND all i wanted is the truth and YOU to tell me the truth ALWAYS!" i said expressing important words, he looked ashamed of himself.

"Bella i'm sorry i just thought it was for the best but obviously wasn't" he said staring at the floor

"Okay i forgive you but our priority is Renesmee now yes?" i asked him

"Yes of course she needs her family around her and us NOT to be arguing" he told me i just nodded in agreement

Jacob walked through the door with Carlisle trailing behind him, Jacob had Nessie in his arms looking limp i ran over to her, her eyes opened but only squinting

"mom.." she said weakly

"Hi sweetie i'm sorry" i said in sympathy.

Carlise called from up the stairs "Come on up" i nodded at Jacob signaling for him to go. I would go up after when she is settled. I walked over to Edward and snuggled up next to him clutching his arm and head in his lap.

"I know Bella but try and stay strong for Nessie's sake it's what she would want" he told me rubbing my back

"I know but... she looked......" i couldn't finish my sentance it hurt to much.

"I know honey, i know" Edward said still rubbing my back comforting me.

"I want to see her" i requested looking up at Edward no longer hiding my face in his lap.

"Okay shall i come with you?" Edward asked me, i nodded getting up and making my way towards the stair case.

Carlisle POV:

Nessie looked so lifeless and defeated (this was probally because she has been through alot, including being in my study on a hospital bed 3 times), i have never saw or ever heard about a illness that Nessie has, i was utterly shocked. I knew that everyone wanted aswers but truthfuly i don't know myself. I heard the stair creek a bit knowing Edward and Bella would be coming up to check on her.

Renesme's POV:

Whats the matter with me now basically my life is just hell, the pain is like when i was turned into a vampire all over again. I yelped out a bit in pain. I heard Carlisle fiddling with something and my mom holding my left hand and my dad holding my right one. I didn't know what was happening to me all of my forms have been a disaster i guess i was never meant to be. I hate it putting my family through all of this stress and worry sometimes i whish i could just disapper when i wanted, the only thing stopping me was Jake (who i am unconditonally in love with) and their feelings, I knew i had to choose put my family through hell or loose everyone (like i never existed, so their lives could be how it used to be) because i wasn't meant to hapen anyway.

I just hate the decision i will have to make!

The End

Next chapters will be her decision and breaking the news to Jacob.