You're the only one I choose

Chapter 7 - The Past

"Pandas!!"

"Well, are you sure that's your answer? Because I asked what you want from life?" Jacob chuckled

"Yeah why not? I could be a Panda caretaker if they exist. That would honestly be the best job in the world."

"You're weird"

"I know" I looked at him with a small smile.

After Jacob and I went out to the backyard for the dare, we started walking towards this big swing in his parents house. And now I'm with him, sitting and talking while looking at the starry night.

"This is beautiful isn't it?" I asked him as I looked up to the sky

"It is" he replied while keeping his gaze on me.

"Why'd you bring me by the way? I mean you could have chosen the other girls... Why me?" I asked looking away from his eyes and down on the ground.

"I don't know, I thought it would be fun to spend time with you rather than those girls. And I don't really like them by the way."

"Oh my god, me neither" I replied excitedly and clapped my hands. He just looked at me and laughed.

We just looked into each other's eyes. A comfortable silence that engulfed us and it felt like there was nobody else but us.

"So, where are your parents? I mean they're not home that's why you're throwing the party, aren't you?" I asked breaking the silence.

"They...umm...are not my parents" he said as looked away from me and into the distance.

"What do you mean?"

"They're my foster parents not my real parents" he said with eyes full of sadness.

"Oh, I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked" I say as I see him tugging at the grass. 

"It's not your fault, don't worry about it"

"If you don't mind me asking, what happened?" I hesitantly asked him.

"I was 11 when it happened. My mom, dad, Sarah and I were going to visit my grandma. We were in the car, laughing and talking. Everybody was just so happy. Sarah and I saw a ice cream shop on the way. We wanted to get some ice cream but dad wouldn't listen. He said we were late for Grandma's house. Then Sarah and I started forcing dad to stop the car. Excited, I started to tug at his hands to stop the car but things got out of turn and our car crashed." A tear slid down his face as he looked up in the sky

I moved closer to him and held his hand in mine.

"I opened my eyes to see I'm in a hospital bed with grandma by my side. Her face is tear stained and she didn't say anything but just gave me a small smile. I asked her about Sarah, mom and dad. She told me that Sarah is okay and that she is in the next room. I then looked at her impatiently to tell me about mom and dad. She just stared at me and bursted into tears. I then realized what had happened. Mom and Dad died in the accident."

"Oh Jacob... I'm so sorry" I said as I felt him tighten his hand in mine and gave him a small hug.

"Sarah and I moved in with grandma. I felt like all of this was my fault. If only I hadn't forced dad at that time. I was very angry with myself. I distanced everybody that came close to me. And I shouted, fought with grandma all the time. I didn't go to school half the time and didn't talk to any of my friends. Sarah tried to talk to me a lot of times but I ignored her concern too.
And then my grandma died too. I couldn't feel the pain anymore. It was all just blank. But from that day onwards one thing that I was sure of was that now I had to take responsibility and care for my little sister. I should do everything in my will to make life better for her. Even though I'll hate myself for my whole life for ruining everything, I won't ever try to ruin anything for her. So now its just me and Sarah. We live with our foster parents who half of the time are not at home. So yeah that's my story"

He looked at me with teary eyes that were threatening to spill any second. I just felt so bad for him. Nobody should ever go though this pain. It just hurts so much to see him like this. So vulnerable.

"And you know the worst part of it all, before my parents and grandma died I couldn't even tell them how much I loved them. I just fought with them. I hate myself so much." He said as he clenched his fist and shut his eyes tightly to prevent any tears from falling.

"Hey Jacob, look at me."I said as I lifted his chin up to meet my gaze. It wasn't your fault. "You were just a kid. You didn't cause that accident. You could do nothing about it."

"You're such a strong and an amazing person. Your mom, dad and grandma already knew you loved them so much. You don't need to regret that you couldn't tell them. They already knew. And the person you've become now, makes me feel so proud of you. Taking such a big responsibility at such a young age is not an easy thing to do. You have a great sister that looks upto you and friends that'll be with you every time. You should be proud of who you have become." I said sincerely

"Sure there were some mistakes you might have done in the past but that doesn't define who you are now. For what I see now right in front of me is a strong, brave man whom I can trust with all my heart." I said as I cupped his cheek with my hand and brought his face in front of mine.

He gave me a smile. And wiped his face with his sleeve.

"You always know the right thing to say" he said

"I'm pretty cool, aren't I?"

"You are..." He said looking in my eyes.

I started to blush so badly.

He moved a strand of my hair behind my ear and stroked my cheek with this finger while his other hand was held in mine. He brought his face closer to mine, leaving only minimal proximity between us. My heart started to beat so fast that I felt like it would rip out of my chest.

"You make me crazy" he whispered as he touched his forehead with mine.

He inched forward closing all the gaps between us as he crashed his lips into mine. Our lips moved in sync. It was like a dream that I wished would never end. The rest of the world was cut off. It was just me and him... in the moment. 

I pulled apart to take a breath. His breathe was ragged and his eyes constantly looking back and forth my eyes and lips.

I didn't know what to say or do at the moment. All I know is this guy, right in front of me, is my happiness...

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