Have you ever felt like your being controlled?
You're restrained by everybody but yourself?
Not having the rein in your hands and having to get up to all their expectations, they aren't aware they but onto you?
The fear that's keeping you to enjoy things, just because you're afraid to do it wrong?
I'll tell you
It feels like your tied up against a wall, every movement every breath is seen and controlled
You are afraid, afraid to upset them, to disappoint them, to make any kind of mistake.
'cause you feel like they remark everything
No escape
The fear to do anything wrong grows each minute
You can't make mistakes.
you, just can't
There's just one problem
You're human
You make mistakes on a daily basis, that's what humans do
You know that faults aren't in particular wrong, you can learn of them
You know that, in your mind
But, everything else tells you to never make mistakes
However, you do it every time
For you it feels like you make much more mistakes than anybody else
Your dumb, foolish
Each time a mistake occurs, you feel like your whole world breaks down
You did something wrong
You didn't mean it
They will be disappointed in me, annoyed
But you can't break down even if it would be good for you
You keep it all in, you repress it
Because you're no one who would give up, ever
But it builds up inside you more and more
Until you can't take it anymore
Until you break
YOU ARE READING
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De TodoShin ae: This is me writing about my thoughts I'm struggling with in my life. Poems, rambling. and nowadays reminders that are useful for me but I hope also for you. - adult me Warning: It (could) contain(s) Self harm, Anxiety, Stage fright, Eatin...
