Hi, I'm an Empath.

Today-life update.

ok so the today-life updates will be what im feeling as of right now i guess. just go with it, sometimes they may be short, others long, just depends on how i feel

So lately I've been feeling kinda eh. Like my emotions have been EVERYWHERE. One minutes I'm great, the next I'm angry as hell just because someone took my swiss role. Like it will change so quick. And especially as of the last couple days, my thoughts have just been really getting to me, but not in a good way, like I've recently reconnected with some of my friends I've talked about in the other chapters, such as Leah. and since I've started talking to them again, the negative emotions have started to come back, and it isnt very fun. 

And tbh I don't know if it's memories of the times or just the facts that talking to them reminds me how much them but, I've been feeling really upset when I think about them that it actually hurts. Especially my guy friends. if you should know one thing about me it's that for some reason I HAVE to have guy friends in my life, if I don't have any real guy friends who I can count on, I get overwhelmed by the shit in the girls life, and sometimes I just need a big brother.. For example at my old school, my group broke off in two, and I was on the guys side because ashlyn hated me. I was so upset because I thought leah hated me that I started crying at school.. which by the way is not normal for me. 

But my friends, Caleb, Jordan, and Hayden (all guys), wasted no time trying to comfort me. We had to go to class and I was still crying slightly, so what did caleb do? He just randomly started singing, "I got this feelin" no context whatsoever. just sang that verse. And then jordan and hayden joined in and sang the next part, by this point i was laughing at their weirdness and jordans weird dancing that i wasnt crying anymore and i started to sing.. 

I will never forget that