Help me. (Roman x Virgil)

Ch.6) Secrets

\\Trigger warning!!! Talk about suicide and talk about panic attack. So, nothing too major to worry about. Also, sorry about the delay, got backed up a bit by things that have happened. Well, anyways, enjoy the story!! //

~Roman's pov~

           After hearing something thud in Virgil's room I decided to open the door to check on him. I couldn't see anything so I shrugged it off. After shutting the door and walking down the hall towards my room I hear a faint voice. It sounds like Virgil is talking to himself. I brush it off and stop when I see Patton dancing around in front of Logan's door. "Patton? He stops dancing and looks at me.
       "I-it's not what it looks like!! I w-wasn't doing a thing!!" Patton was waving his hands around frantically and blushing a bit.
        "Hmmmm, suurreee." I smirked a bit and laughed lightly as I crossed my arms over my chest.
         "Roman!! You have got to believe me!!" He looked around and started to slowly walk back to his room.
          "I believe you, now get to your room. You still have to explain to me why you were doing that later though." Making fun of Patton a bit more, he took no time at all to nod his head yes and dart into his room. I laughed silently to myself as I sauntered into my own room to get some well deserved beauty sleep.

^Patton's pov^

           When I shut my door I ran over to my bed and sat down still blushing a lot. "Oh no!! Roman saw that!! Does he know now!! Oh no, oh no, oh no!!" I do have to admit that I was freaking out a bit because Roman may know my secret now. I haven't told anyone in fear that they might tell Logan. Calming down a bit I grabbed my light blue dairy out from under my bed. I put a whole bunch of sparkly animal stickers on it so you could barely see the light blue cover of it. Flipping open to the next unused page I started to write in it.
 

                           "Dear diary,"

                "Today I think that Roman almost found out my secret. No one knows yet, I know that I said I would tell someone last time but........I just couldn't tell Virgil, Roman, or Thomas. I just can't let them know yet that I love Logan."

          Someone knocked on my door and I slammed the diary shut before tossing it under my bed. Rushing over to my door I almost trip over a stuffed animal. When I get to the door I throw it open to see Logan standing there with a small, dark blue, notepad in his hand and a slightly worried expression on his face.
     "Are you okay Patton?"

*Virgil's pov*

        I woke up in my bathroom on the floor. My head was pounding and my arm hurt. The events from my dream came back to me and my breathing hitched. Grabbing at my jacket I pulled it off and tossed it to the floor. I looked at my arm, it was perfectly fine. "What? Did that really even happen?" Still in the midst of a panic attack I heard a voice.
        "Virgil!! Your awake!!" I looked around and went to grab my jacket again until a sharp pain shot through my head. I muffled my cry as I fell back onto the floor. "Can't have you grabbing that right now. Sorry." The voice spoke again, it wasn't until the last words that I realized who it was. It was Insanity.
          "W-what do you want!!" I spoke quietly but loudly. My voice shook slightly as I tried to calm myself down. Insanity laughed.
          "Poor, poor, pathetic Virgil!!" He laughed again as I stood up.
       "Where even are you?" I looked around the dimly lit bathroom but could see no sign of another person.
          "I'm in your head silly!!" He said with a fake cheerfulness. Then, his voice suddenly switched from the fake happiness to a more serious tone. "I need you to do something for me Virgil. You have to make sure no one finds out or else........" I had started to shake as nodded.
          "W-what do y-you want me to do?" I say desperately trying to calm down but failing causing me to stutter.
          "I need you to hurt yourself for me Virgil." A small laugh like sound echoed in my head as a razor appeared on the floor in front of me. I started to shake violently.
         "No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no......." Whispering the same word over and over again I backed away from it. I started to shake even worse now.
         "Do it Virgil, you don't want me to force you to do it, now do you?" Insanity's voice takes on a tone of false innocence. Trying my best to calm down I take a look at the razor again before squeezing my eyes shut. I felt a panic attack coming on. The world was spinning and everything was turning black at the edges.
         "I-I can't...I can't do this again....." I whispered softly as I picked up the razor and took the blades out of it. "What will the others think of me now?"