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part 3 kj's point of view

      I stood there staring through the small glass window wondering what he was being told, had they figured out what happened. I saw them talk for a few minutes and all seemed good until the doctor said something and cevins face went blank and you could see the tears building up in his eyes. I desperately wanted to run into the room and tell him everything was going to be alright, that I was going to be with him every step of the way and would never leave his side. But my feet didn't move and me mouth went dry and a thousand possibilities ran through my mind. It could have been anything, it could have been my fault. What if him passing out wasn't an accident . " what if.... No he wouldn't have" I mumbled to myself right as I saw the doctor open the door and exit the room. As much as I wanted to go in there and ask what had happened I couldn't, the feeling of guilt had come back from that night. But why do I feel guilty, I did nothing wrong was being interviewed by my max for a job interview and he kissed me ,max was a kid from school who was running back on the football team. Did I feel something that I shouldn't have or was it that I could have stopped him before it happened. Heck why an I even thinking about this he can't even remember that night. "Kj" I heard him call from the room. I rushed there to his side and there was a tear rolling down his face when he said " it's over I don't want to hurt you but I can't..... It won't work" and all I could do was think Did he remember what had happened did he not know the truth. I tried to reason with him" but the kiss meant nothing'' tears now rushing out of my eyes i repeated "it meant nothing'' he gave me a furious look "you did what " he said in an angry voice. I thought you remembered i thought that's why you broke up with me.. He wiped a tear from his face and whispered "go just go" wait I can explain it's not what it seems. He gave me an angered look and then shouted "I said go!" I turned around about to walk out when I heard a quiet sob. I glanced back to see him curled up facing the wall. I mumbled " I Will Always Love You" and then I walked out. Barely able to hold back my emotions I ran to the waiting room and tears began to run down my face.