Our infinity love is our forever promise (R5 fanfiction Ryland Lynch Rocky Lynch Rocky Lynch Rydel Lynch Ross Lynch)

Chapter 1

I am currently living in England, Birmingham. I'm 17 years old and my birthday is in September. I hate the weather here in England. It's always miserable. I have this massive crush on this one boy, Spencer. The last 10 months have been horrible. We loved, we hated, we fought, we laughed. Now he just completely ignores me. I hate it. We use to be good friends but now. I'm invisible to him. I cry myself to sleep. I self-harm. I don't tell anyone my problems. He knew i self-harmed once so he took all my blades away and he saw my cuts. But i carried on and hid my scars. I still cut onward to this very day.

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Urgh i have school today. It's Monday. I hate Mondays. Nobody does. I got out of bed. I took a shower and got out my school uniform and put it on. I had my skirt long because my mom doesn't like me having it short but i shorten it when i get out the house. I wish i could wear my own clothes. I dried my long, staight hair (which goes down just above my hips. Yes i have very long hair) and let down my side fringe. I pushed it back with my hand and applied my makeup. I got my Cath Kidson backpack and jogged downstairs. I poured some orange juice into a glass and gulped it down. "Okay I'm leaving for school now mom bye!" I shouted upstairs. "Give me a kiss first!" Shouted back. I sighed. "Don't sigh at me lady" she said walking down the stairs. I turned around and the first she looked at was my skirt. I crossed my arms and rolled my eyes. She came and kissed me on the cheek. "Okay bye" i said rushing out the house. I walked around the corner and rolled up my skirt 3 times. My skirt is really really long so i have to roll it up 3 times. I tug it down a bit. I then got out my phone and earphones. I then put on Wild Life from Jack and Jack. I was scared because me and Spencer walk to same way to get to school and the same way to walk home. I didn't really want to see him because i would probably break down. But surprise surprise i saw him. I looked over at him and he looked over to me. Then he quickly looked away. I then looked forward and went to cross the road. Cars went past and i was about to walk into the road but i got pulled back and a car whizzed past me and a person shouted, "watch out! Are you trying to kill yourself!!" I turned around and it was Spencer. He shook his head and ran across the road. I turned and looked at him. He looked back at me and then ran down the road until I couldn't see him anymore. I looked both sides this time and no cars were coming so i crossed. I walked and just wanted to replay that moment. He actually talked to me. But only because i was gonna die.

I was walking and i looked up. A boy was bending down doing his lace. Once i got closer i saw who it was. It was Spencer. Oh god. Just walk past him. Don't make eye contact. You can do this Rose. Just walk past him. I slid past him and i heard a deep voice "I don't get a thank you?" I turned around and Spencer was standing up. I realised that he had no laces on his shoes. "Oh i thought you wouldn't listen to me so" i said looking at him in his eyes. "Why wouldn't i not listen?"
"You never listen to me. You never talk to me. Let alone make eye contact. You always avoid me which makes me think I'm invisible to you"
"That's how you feel"
"Partly"
He then walked past me. Well then! I turned around crossed the road and carried on walking. I arrived in school and went to form.

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It was the end of school. Great i had to walk home. I ran out so i could get home fast. My phone started buzzing. I got it out my pocket and answered my phone. "Hello"
"Hey sweetie it's your mother. I'm going to pick you up"
Thats weird. She never picks me up. Something must me up.
"Okay, i will be by the shops beside the school. See you in a bit"
"Bye Primrose"
"I said not to call me that! It's Rose!" With that i hung up. I walked to the shops and leaned against a lamp post. Then i realised my skirt. Shit what was i gonna do? I just unrolled it once so it would be rolled up twice. It was above my knees which would be alright. The wind was strong which made it lift a bit up my legs so it will be alright. My mom drove up to a parking space and i ran into the car. I buckled my seatbelt and pulled down my skirt.