Let You Love Me - Seaycee

VIII

I ran out onto the streets of LA without looking back. I heard Sean and Devon calling my name in the distance, but I couldn't look at either one of them right now. Why would Sean say such a horrible thing to me? I wasn't a helpless person, it's just easier said than done to break up with and leave someone you care about.

I kept running and running until my legs felt like they were going to give out. I was running for so long that I could see the afternoon sun beginning to lower. I looked down at my apple watch to see texts and calls from my family.

kaycee, where are you?

please, at least tell us if you're okay.

honey, please pick up the phone. your dad is worried sick.

"I'm sorry, you guys." I shook my head before turning off my phone and looking around at my surroundings.

Across the street was Bunker Hill Bar & Grill. Josh and I used to go there all the time on the weekends. Especially during happy hour when everything was half off. I remember the first time Josh took me there after he had asked me to be his girlfriend. I'm pretty sure he had one too many sushi rolls that night, but we laughed it off like it was nothing.

"You want a bottle of wine? They have a great selection here." Josh had said to me.

I looked at him like he was crazy, "Josh! I'm not 21 yet, remember?"

"Oh, c'mon, babe. You're only two years off and besides, if we were back in my hometown you would be able to." He winked at me. "So let's just pretend." 

I hesitated but eventually nodded in agreement, "Only one glass, though. One of us has to drive tonight."

"Deal."

He gave me that irresistible smile. It was one that he only gave when he was happy and nowadays I see that smile less and less. It's like once we moved in together everything changed. He started expecting more and more from me. Like I didn't have a life of my own and my existence was purely for his personal satisfaction only. I couldn't even move a certain way without Josh screaming at me.

The drinking, though, had always been there. I thought it was fun to party with him until one day responsibilities came along and it wasn't a priority for me to go out every night. Josh was perfect at one point, or so I thought. He just couldn't handle any responsibility and how could I ever last with someone like that?

I soon found myself walking across the street to Bunker Hill and getting myself a table that was meant for two, only I was alone.

"Can I start you off with something to drink?" The waitress asked.

"Yes, a water please." I nodded.

She walked off and I was brought out of my heavy thoughts by an obnoxious laugh.

"Josh, stop it!" I heard a girl yell out.

I looked to my left to see Josh and Taylor sitting in a booth that was across the restaurant. There they were, holding hands and laughing like they didn't have a thing in the world to be ashamed of.

"I can defend myself," I whispered to myself before getting up and storming over to them.

As I approached, Josh had a smug look on his face and Taylor looked annoyed.

"Well, hello, Josh." I crossed my arms and looked between the two.

"You've moved on already, huh? Didn't even care to break up with me first?"

Josh scoffed before shaking his head, "I figured it was pretty obvious that we were over. I mean you ran to Sean, I figured the same thing was going on with you two."

"You know what Josh? You disgust me and you're a sad excuse of a human! I mean taking her to our favorite restaurant? I can't even look at you."

My mouth was moving quicker than my brain was and before I knew it I was picking up Taylor's glass of coke.

"And you." I looked Taylor in her eyes. "We used to be friends. How could you?"

I poured the glass of Coke on top of her head and it all poured down her white outfit.

"What the hell, Kaycee!" Josh stood up.

I looked at him and flipped him off before turning around and storming out of the building. I gotta admit, it felt amazing to give them a piece of my mind. I didn't like what Sean said earlier but he was at least right about that. I went on my phone and got an Uber to pick me up and take me back to Sean's place.

When I got upstairs everyone had left. Sean was sitting on the couch with his head buried in his hands.

"Kaycee! I was so worried about you. You hadn't come back in hours a-a-and I—"

Before he finished his sentence I attached my lips to his and wrapped my arms around his neck. I felt his body relax into my touch and he began to kiss back. Neither of us had to say or do anything besides keep doing what we were doing. Whatever this was I loved the feeling of it and I can't believe it took me so long to realize that this needed to happen.

Sean pulled away, "What was that for?"

"I'm sorry for not realizing sooner." I smiled at him as we rested our foreheads together.

"And what exactly did you realize?" He softly chuckled.

"You're the one, Sean. You always have been and you always will be." I said to him.

As soon as those words left my mouth he completely attacked me with his lips. The force would have knocked me over if Sean hadn't lifted me up and brought me over to the couch.

Sean was the one. I needed him in my life. Some people come and go. Others will completely use you and stab you in the back, but Sean? He was loyal. He was kind. He was everything to me.

"Kaycee, I've wanted to do this for so long." He said in between kisses.

"What?" I looked at him.

Sean looked at me for a second before feeling in between his couch cushions. When he found what he was looking for he lifted his hand and I spotted gold plastic foil shaped like a square. My cheeks flushed before I nodded at him.

That evening Sean and I had become one and I never felt closer to him than I did in that one moment. Everything just felt so right. I didn't have to worry about yesterday or tomorrow, just the moment.

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