Who ever said we couldn't be different? Langst Oneshots

Name

Lance. What a plain name. I've never favored my name much, never liked it either. I guess, no one gave me a reason to.

Why? How would someone give you a reason to love your name? Certainly not yelling or screaming it, over and over, in anger, respite, tactically. Anger because I'm annoying, obnoxious, an idiot, a failure, useless and my all-time favorite: A Disappointment. Respite, all the sighs and conversations that I've heard that my 'space family' have frequently: The way they relish when I'm not there, doing something wrong- No, just that my presence, me being there at all, gets me the opposite of relief from them. Tactically. How they compare my actions, my self, to others. To them.

I don't blame them. I'm not useful like they are. I'm not as smart as Pidge or Hunk. I'm not as good as Keith- No, anything at all is nothing when compared to Keith. I'm not a leader like Shiro. I'm not like them. But who said I couldn't try?

Not like it would mean anything, even if you tried which trying for you is not even close to 'trying' as you can get. 'Failing'. Now that is the perfect word for what you do: Fail

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I pick at the green goo as everyone chats, moving the goo around with my spoon; I wasn't gonna eat anyway, so why come at all.

Pidge says, having an argument with Hunk about the pros and cons of whatever plan they were talking about. "No, Plan D is better! It gives Keith more room for fighting, a less chance of being captured and-"

Hunk interrupts. "I'm sorry, but Plan C is better. Plan C doesn't only give you what Plan D does, it also gives us more chance of-"

I just tune them out, their voices becoming a hush, a whisper, turning into background noise.

(No P.O.V)

Keith adds his two cents to the mix. "Both plans are good, okay? But Plan E is not just full of advantages, it doesn't leave us with holes here and there."

Pidge gives him a long, hard gaze before saying,"What's that supposed to mean?"

Keith levels the same gaze. "You know what it means."

Pidge stands up. "Y-"

Shiro spreads his arms out in a peace gesture and says, "Pidge, Hunk. Keith. I understand both sides to this but," He pauses, making sure their attention is on him, "Plan A is better."

Pidge objects. "No way! Plan D is!"

Hunk speaks up. "Plan C is good too!"

As they argue, back and forth, Lance doesn't hear a thing, entranced and completely held by his thoughts. If only those thoughts weren't so much there.

—-—— (Time Skip brought to you by Langst anxiety-)———

(Lance's P.O.V)

Walking down the halls, I search for a Library Pidge had mentioned in passing once. 

Why not ask Allura? Yeah, okay. Let's ask the b who wouldn't even give me the time of day, much less where the library would be. Only thing she's focusing on is perfecting her being-a-bitch skills. She doesn't need much practicing though.

Coran. Actually, Coran was on Allura's side.

Shiro? No thanks, I'd rather not be squashed by the truth 24/7 by an asshole who needs some lessons on being not-such-an-ass. Shiro is not who you think he is, that is not Shiro. He's Shirass or Takeshit now. Both are true.

Point is, everyone's too busy thinking up retorts about my 'amazingness'. Allura's are the perfect blend of 'bitchiness' and 'issues'. Shirass's are a blend of 'strict dad' and 'walking asshole' syndrome. Pidge's are 'sarcastic filled' and 'on-her-period-24/7 mood swings'. Hunk's are not all sunshiny and down to a soft kind of hurt, oh no. Hunk's are 'over-the-top mom' and a hint  of 'mom-got-issues'. Coran's are 'drunken uncle' and 'indirect-but-on-purpose'. Keith's are the same as always, just a touch of 'how-to-be-extra-emo'.