Our new neighbors, the Divits!

Chapter 10

"I have something that will help you." He said. His eyes switched between my eyes and my lips. I knew he was looking for any kind of hesitation from my side. But I didn't show any. I knew I wanted this more than anything.

I leaned forward a bit, his right hand cupped my face and he kissed me for the first time.

I hadn't really any expectations about how my first kiss would feel like. Of course I was thinking about it sometimes, but I didn't expected this. These kind of emotions I was experiencing were so new and overwhelming to me. He kissed me with so much passion that I completely forgot about the worries I had. What if he doesn't like it, what if I do it wrong and embarrass myself completely, what if....No Sanem.

Just dive right in and follow his lead I said to myself. And this is exactly what I did.

We needed some air after a while, so we took a break from kissing and looked each other in the eyes. Both of us had this wide smile across our faces and I could see his dimples. Damn I could melt right here, dimples are my weakness. And his dimples, well they were definitely doing things to me.

I wanted to experience it again and so I kissed him this time. I had to reposition myself on the couch to get better access and my hands wandered from his hair on to his back and then to his arms and it ended with me holding his face in my hands. No idea where that adrenaline rush came from and I didn't mind taking initiative this time. Not for a second. I hoped I didn't mess it up but I went after what I felt like and it felt good. More than good, it felt amazing. For me anyways.

"Sooo....no prior experience hmm? Are you sure about that?" I hear Can asking me.

Feeling overwhelmed by everything that just happened and hearing his voice, I hugged him quickly. I couldn't stop smiling. I didn't dare to look at him. All the confidence I had a few seconds ago vanished completely.

"Jepp, pretty sure about it. Can, this felt incredible. I didn't know I could have such emotions inside me. I can't even describe what I feel now. I am so overwhelmed and I...I really liked kissing you. A lot."

My cheeks were burning up and I could imagine how red I was by now. He said yesterday in the car that honesty is important to him and so that is what I want to convey. I want to be honest about how I feel and how he made me feel.

"I really, really liked kissing you too Sanem. I hope your first kiss was what you imagined it would be like and that it was worth the wait. With me. You have no idea what this means to me. I am so lucky I have met you."

I turned to look at him. I knew this conversation had to be face to face.

"If someone told me that I would be having my first kiss with someone I met only a few days ago I wouldn't believe it myself. It wasn't what I imagined, Can."

His wide smile faded all of a sudden and I could see sadness across his face. Only now I realized what he might be thinking.

"No. Can. It wasn't what I imagined because it was so much more." I say moving up onto his lap and taking his face into my hands.

"It is not easy to let yourself go and open up to someone in such a short time. I don't know what it is but it feels as if I know you my whole life. I feel safe when I am with you.

There are no words right now to describe how I feel. I am on cloud nine, I feel so overwhelmed, excited and happy all at the same time. I feel things inside my belly that I never felt before and it's scary. But scary in a good way. I wouldn't want to share this experience with anyone else and honestly, I'm over the moon that it was with you. I loved every minute of it."