Judgemental

at home life

the next morning Simone and i decided to take a break tonight and stay in , watching movies , eating and cuddling each other. we did that when one of us felt scared or any type of emotion really. the other one of us never judge the other one . we jus cuddle each other , i guess Simone was up set maybe about what happened last night, but i forgot all about it once we got to James house. "ima go get some things from my house and im coming right back so stay up." she said kissing my cheek then walking out . "be careful ma" i said pulling out a blue tshirt and some shorts getting ready to hop in the shower. i connected my phone to the bluetooth speaker and turn the music up while shutting my door. once i got in the shower and shaved then washed up and got out . "what you doin today beautiful niecey pooh" Dave said standing in my bathroom door from the way it looked he was admiring my body in a towel. " Dave damn you really need to get tf out of my room fr" i said while finishing brushing my teeth. i then turned around brushing passed him i went back into my room scanning my room quickly to try and find something to hit his old ass with jus in case he tried me. to late for that, i felt my body hit the bed stomach first and then a arm goes around my neck , choking me from behind. the last thing i remember is Dave whispering in my ear "you gone be my big girl today"
when i woke up i was still laying on my bed but my towel was open . once i tried to move i felt such a pain so sharp in my privet areas that i jus fell bac to my bed , laying there crying. i felt so weak and i hate that feeling so i got dressed and made my way through the house looking for Dave . he was in the kitchen drinking a beer looking up at the ceiling, then at me once he noticed me standing there glaring at him. "did you touch me you old bitch!" i yelled "WHY DID YOU TOUCH ME!" i yelled again throwing plates , cups , anything in my reach really. he quietly got up walking towards me . i tried to bac up to where he couldn't touch me but i guess it made him even madder because he ended up punching me right in my face making hit the floor with glass everywhere. "clean this bs up you little bitch" he said walking out the front door. i sat there for a minute and cried , when out of nowhere Karla ass walks in . she stands there looking at me for a minute with no emotion on her face then continued to walk to the fridge grabbing her a bottle of water then walking towards the front door. " ill be back" she muttered . i guess shes sober and about to go get her high , not caring about why i was laying in glass crying. if it doesn't involve crack she doesn't give a damn.
i finally got myself off the floor and noticed all the cuts i had on my legs. i dusted myself off and walked over the glass making my way bac to my room. i began texting Simone while still fighting my tears

text messages
ME: Simone please hurry. i need my cuddles
we took our cuddles serious, like i said before me and Simone sometimes talk our problems out but mostly we jus cuddled and confront each other.
BESTIE🥰🤞🏾👯‍♀️: sorry ma. my dad finally passed , hes in a better place tho ! no more suffering no more pain. i need somewhere to stay tho. they're taking the apartment because of how far we was behind bills😢😫😭

ME: Simone come get me ill help pack . im bout to make room and you can come stay with me . you know this best friend! i love you and dont feel alone baby because i got you

BESTIE🥰🤞🏾👯‍♀️: i love you to sissy . im on my way

i was making room for Simone things while crying , when she texted me again letting me know she was outside i put slides on and wiping my tears before i made my way out the door. when i got in the car i hugged her so tightly and she hugged me the same way . i guess she could see in my face i was hurt about something. then she said " don't worry about me Nicki , this day was goin to come anyway. it's something i cant control. but this right here is bs" rubbing my legs where i had cut them at . she looked in my eyes and said " it's always us , no one above us" i kissed her cheek.
once we made it back to her house someone was inside. neither one of us had family here in Tennessee so who tf could it be ? walking in Simone pulled out her mace and i got prepared to fight whoever tf ran out . when we walked in to our surprise it was Simones mom. Simone froze staring at this lady , "Simone, baby im sorry i jus came to get the rest of my stuff then im leaving" she said nervously looking down . she then grabbed her bags and headed for the door. "so your leaving again? YOUR LEAVING AGAIN AFTER MY DAD JUS DIED ! I HAVE NO WHERE TO GO AND YOUR LEAVING?" Simone yelled at her mom while crying "I HATE YOU" ! her mom looked at Simone in her eyes then looked at the man in the car waiting for her and said "im sorry Simone i have to go". she said walking out , put her bags in the car and then left. i can tell Simone was ready to break down, ready to give in but she didn't . she bit her bottom lip real hard and jus began to pack her things . once we finished up we loaded her things up and headed bac the my house
when we pulled up Dave was sitting in his car smoking a cigarette watching me and Simone as we brung her things in one by one . once we got down to the last bag Dave decides to say something, " whats goin on here" he said to Simone walking up to her checking her out . " you ok beautiful?" . "yes i am . excuse me" She said looking uncomfortable. walking by him goin into the house i mugged him , he looked at both of us like he wanted to eat us then turn around and looks like he wants to kill us. something was seriously wrong with this man.
once we got in Karlas ass was once again passed out on the couch . i guess she finally got her high , smh i hate that woman! once we got Simone things up and unpacked we laid on the bed all night cuddling watching netflix. i ordered us some pizza and wing, and made my way to the door when i heard a knock . Simone already knows what i go thru regardless if i tell her or not , so she got up behind me and followed me to the living room . when we walked in Dave was hanging a bag with white powdered in it over Karlas head as she was on her knees unbuttoning his pants . "woooow , i hope she accidentally bite that bitch off while she high and woooow, thats her husbands brother and she does that such a hoe" i whispered to Simone as she giggled covering her mouth ! we paid for the pizza and went bac to the room , they never noticed us . i guess they both was high that night .