Judgemental

today

i scheduled the abortion and today was the big day , "you ready?" Simone said looking sad at me. i hugged her, " its whats best sissy. plus think about it , we're still young and have alot to accomplish! Chris was right this is whats best!" she rolled her eyes at me "Chris this Chris that! Chris really got you gon" i laughed kissing her hand . " thank you, come on" i said getting out of the car , she got out and we walked in.
"i have an appointment with you guys today. last name Brown." "ok mrs Brown please follow me." once we got to the bac everything began to settle in. im really goin to kill my child, i cant believe he wants to kill our child! i began to wonder if i should go through with this, but i could hear his voice in my head "i love you, this is for us" ! they then asked me a few questions and and started the procedure.
after everything was done i walked out to Simone, hugging her . " what did i do!" . she squeezed me tight, " its always us, no one above us!"
once we got bac to the room i texted Chris letting him know i went through with it. he texted bac fast telling me he was on his way, he got there fast to! as he knocked on the door i opened it slowly looking at the floor sad. "hey baby" he said picking me up like a baby hugging me and kissing me. "how'd it go?" "how you think!" Simone said yelling over me. " she was in pain and still is!" you are so selfish." "aye lul mama you better chill yourself before we get on that fr, lul bitch always talking! can me and my girl talk please?" Simone kissed my cheek "ima go get us some food ok sissy?" "ok baby be carful!"
he looked at me kinda mad. "i come first that bitch second!" i began to grow confused, " huh what you mean baby" . "I Come First!" he said slamming his hand on the wall by where my face was, i grew scared putting my head down and not saying anything. "baby" he said holding my head up. i looked him in his eyes "i love you." he said, i stared at him for a moment before kissing him all over slowly until i finally went down on him . i made sure to suc it super good spitting and gagging all on it, i wanted to keep him extra happy with me. once he was done he zipped his pants and pulled me to my feet, you ready to make some real money? "yes baby." i said biting my lip, " you and Simone be dressed in something comfortable tomorrow night and dont be boring. im get yall a bottle and some weed" he said handing me 800$ . "ok big daddy and you gotta know me and Simone never boring" he kissed me and Simone walked in , he got up walking out smacking Simone ass when she walked past him. she looked at him kinda crazy then started laughing, as much as she didn't like him she was so goofy!
"he told us dress comfortable tomorrow" i said grabbing the Canes she bought , "he said we going to start making real money and i think he's serious sissy!" . " ok Nicki now eat you haven't ate all day" i then jumped up out the bed and ran to the closet, opened our suit case counting the money we had. 19,786$ ! "sissy we damn near there, with all the extra money we make i can guarantee me , you and Chris will be out of Tennessee before you know it!" me and Simone spent the rest of the night eating and cuddling but for some reason i couldn't stop thinking about Chris and all the money we will make together. i wondered how will we make money together.
the next day came and i was excited! me and Simone took a shower , did our hair and makeup and got dressed comfortably.

it was around 10:30pm when Chris texted me letting me know he was on his way. we smoked a blunt as we waited until
**knock knock**
i got up and opened the door and was met by Chris and two other guys. "hey baby" he said smacking my ass walking in.  " whats this" i said looking confused. Simone stood up looking confused to, "Chris!" i said saying his name loud! "sit down!" he said in a serious tone. me and Simone looked at each other and sat on the bed, "Now i told yall , yall was goin to make good money as long as yall do what the fuc i say, i told yall i was gon get yall out this damn hotel room as long as yall do what the fuc i say and yall still trippin! Chill tf out and listen! i expect better from you Nicki!" he said glaring at me, i looked down then looked at Simone . she didnt seen fazed by him at all she sat there staring at him mugging with her arms crossed. she didnt say anything tho because she knew the money was good. "Now, these my two home boys! they got 3,500$ in their bag right now. together thats 7,000$ dollars, they want to give yall this money in exchange for y'all dancing for them then whatever they want after that. we got yall some bottles and weed , really whatever yall want. Chris pulled out a bag with white powder in it. A bag with white powder! wow! really crack, i know he jus fucn didn't. i sat there thinking about how much this mf got me fucked up until i seen Simone get up walking to the guy in all blac grabbing the bag of money then his shirt pulling him closer. i sat there . i looked up at Chris and man if looks could kill, he was staring straight at me with the most evil look. i guess Simone noticed and whispered in her guy ear before quickly coming to me sitting beside me whispering to me , " bitch lets make this money. Nicki this is what we do and bitch now we finna get rich off this shit. its 7,000$ easily made we got this!" she kissed my cheek pulling me up beginning to dance to the music they put on . i walked over to the other guy . "im Nicki" i said licking my lip reaching for the bag

he handed it to me then turnt me around making me bend over and dance in him , i still felt Chris eyes on me tho . he was sitting in a chair by the table, he jus looked at us and smoked. we actually ended up having good time dancing and drinking, i walked over to Chris . " hey daddy" i said sitting on his lap, he quickly grabbed my neck and pulled my face close to his, "bitch if you ever embarrass me like that again ill smack tf outta you" he pushed my head away. i put my head down but picked it back up remembering he hate that soft ass shit. i danced in front of him and he watched me still looking serious but biting his lip, the other dude came over and sat beside him watching  me to. turns out dude with Simone name is Zay and the guy with me name was Sam. as time went by i was on my ass drunk , so was Simone so we was extra lit. i guess the guy Zay was feeling Simone so much he made his move, he pulled her on top of him taking her shirt off. Chris looked at me and smirked so i made my move on the guy Sam. i sat on top of him taking his shirt off then mine, we began to kiss when Chris pulled me by my hair pulling my head bac, " dont be so intimate, you still my girl." he kissed my cheek as i took the rest of dude clothes off
me and Simone was having sex and Chris watched both of us. i dont know why , i guess making sure we didnt get hurt or something but he watched. when everything was over me and Simone took a shower while Chris talked to the guys and cleaned the room for us, by the time we got out Chris was laying on the bed on his phone. when we stepped out he put his phone up sitting in the side of the bed, "they were happy and yall made me proud." he said walking up to my kissing me , " especially you baby!" Chris stayed the night with us tonight i slept in the middle and they both cuddled me , i felt safe . i felt loved