For The Better

Diana

Who the hell does he think he is? Acting like im a 40 year old pervert. Patience is my daughter more than it is his. I carried her for 9 months, not him. I had the heart burn, I was the one with the back pains. Not him.

I stormed out the apartment to my car. I got in my car and slammed the door. I was mad. I sat there in the car thinking of my next move when I had a flashback. It was when I first told Darius that I was pregnant and I was considering abortion. He got so mad, I had never seen him act like that until that day. He told me if I got an abortion, he was going to kill me. He called me the next day and apologized for it but he said If I was to get an abortion, he would break up with me and never talk to me again. As you can see, I didn't get the abortion.

I got out my phone and called Quon. I told him I was coming over. I drove to his house. When I got there, I sat on the couch trying to look sad so he could ask me whats wrong... and he did. "Whats wrong with you girl?" he asked "Nothing, I got into it with my baby daddy..." I said sighing. "Why you come over here?" he asked. I scooted closer and said " I need somebody to take him off my mind. You know a way you can take him off my mind? " He chuckled and said "Yeah, I got a way. Lets go to my room." We went to his room and he ate me out and we had some weak sex. It really didnt take Darius off my mind.

I left and went to my grandmother's house. I was still mad at Darius.

The next day I left my grandmothers home to meet up with a group of friends. We went to the pizza place Darius used to take me to all the time. All my friends kept asking me "What is it like to be living with a baby and your boyfriend?" "What did child birth feel like?" or "Are you tired?" I answered them "Its real hard living with a baby and my boyfriend" "Get pregnant and feel it for yourself" and "Hell yes, im tired. Tired of everything". After we ate, we went to the park and smoked some weed and talked about old times. Boy did I miss the old times.

I got home around 2 am. I went in Patience's room because she was crying. Darius didn't hear her. He was neglecting her needs! She was hungry. I fed her, changed her and sat on the couch rocking her back to sleep. I put her back in her bassinet. I went in the room and laid in the bed next to Darius. He woke up.