The day I lost my freedom

Owner's notes. Day 5.

- Keira tried to escape today. She was very clever about it. She took a pillowcase to isolate the electric shock from the collar and then threatened her own life. I don't even remember the last time I felt such fear. I was afraid she would really try to kill herself because I knew how much she doesn't like being a captive. I wasn't able to stop her by myself. It was one of the traps in the staircase which stopped her from escaping. I replaced all pillows with the one which don't need pillowcase.

- I made her promise me to never threaten her own life again. That makes me feel a little better.

- The interesting part of her escape was, when she took a frying pan for defense, even though there was knives right next to her. I'd like to find out why. Could it be because she didn't want to hurt me?

- She called me by my real name. Even the situation we were in, I found it sexy.

- She inhaled the sleeping gas, so I waited for her to wake up. I couldn't get rid of my perverted thoughts. I had the urge to give up on this whole thing and have a little fun with her. She is mine and I have the rights to do it. But in the end I resisted. I already spent too much time by all of this. I will not throw my progress with Keira away.

- I wanted to take her to my room so I could punish her for trying to escape, but suddenly she jumped at me, hugged me and begged me not to do it. I was shocked. It was the first time she had touched me to such an extent and still completely voluntarily. I had to fight my thoughts so I wouldn't fuck her right there.

- My brother warned me that I am too taken by her. After today, I began to notice it too. I am thinking about her at the expense of my personal life and it starts to manifest itself by lack of sex.

The easiest way to solve the problem would be to go out and find another woman to take to bed. However, my thoughts of Keira consume me and I wouldn't be able to get her out of my head. For now, I will solve the problem with my right hand.

- When she got out of the room, she had to notice the monitors for the cameras installed in her room. When I am not there with her, she likes to watch them. I am glad for that. It helps me release when I am working with my right hand due to my lack of sex.