The day I lost my freedom

Punishment

I woke up. The first thing I noticed was Kurokami sitting beside me. He stared at me, not even blinking. I couldn't recognize his mood from his expression. I didn't know what to do. He made me nervous. There was nothing good waiting for me after my attempted escape. I sat up. My head hurt so badly. That must be from the effects of the gas. I groaned in pain and grabbed my head. Kurokami raised his hand in front of me and opened his palm. There was a small pill lying. In his other hand, he held a glass of water. I didn't notice it before. It looks like he just conjured it up. Is he a magician or something?

"Painkiller for you..." he said. Did it mean he wasn't angry with me?

"Thank you," I told him with gratitude. I took the pill and the glass.

"Keira... I understand you don't want to be in captivity and I don't blame you... but you've broken one of my rules. You need to accept consequences for this now," he told me with a calm voice as I swallowed my pill. Yes... I was aware of that.

"What will you do to me?" I asked, not looking into his eyes. I was afraid of what he would say.

"I'll tie you to my bed for the night. Then I'll touch you... everywhere," he replied. My heart sank. How could he say that without any emotions! I shivered.

"What time is it?"

"It's evening Keira. We'll soon move to my room," he said. I leaned my head against the wall. I was afraid. There was touches and even worse things I went through because of re-education, but this was different. I tried to mentally prepare myself for this night but I couldn't.

We sat there for another 10 minutes.

"Are you better now?" he asked me. I shook my head. My head did stop hurting, which was what he asked, but I certainly didn't feel better. It seemed he realized what I was thinking.

"Your head still hurts?" He asked again more specifically. I slowly shook my head again. I wanted to avoid the punishment but I wasn't going to lie to him. He stood up.

"Let's go,"

My heart sank once again. I didn't move.

"Keira... at least have some dignity and accept your punishment. You knew this could happen before you even tried to escape," he told me reproachfully. With a great deal of self-denial, I eventually stand up. I finally looked into his eyes. He pointed toward the door.

"Let's go," he spurred me.

I was terrified. Out of desperation, I did the last thing I thought could stop it all. I jumped to him and hugged him tightly.

"Please don't do this to me," I whimpered on the verge of tears. My head was folded on his shoulder, so I couldn't see his reaction, but he stood frozen.

"Keira," he moaned. Then he took a deep breath suddenly hugging me back, very tightly and roughly. I was unprepared and felt myself hit the wall as he pushed my back against its surface, taking full control of the situation. I could feel his pulse. His heart was beating like crazy. He slid his hand into my hair and pushed my head even harder to him. We stayed that way for a while.

"I will let it go if you will promise me one thing," he said quietly. He loosened grip of my head and slightly moved away to see my face.

"Never again, ever!... threaten your own life... Promise me that!" he said sternly.

"I promise."

He gazed into my eyes for a moment, then he put his head back on my shoulder. A giant stone fell from my heart. I tried to pull off from him already.

"I didn't say you could go," he said briskly.

So I let him enjoy our hug. I had no idea my suicide threat has affected him so strongly, but I understand that I'm an expensive toy. If the toy I paid 2 million euros for wanted to kill itself, I wouldn't be thrilled either.

After a few more minutes he finally released me. He stepped back and looked into my eyes for a few more seconds. Then he sighed and left. I relaxed and let my body slide down the wall to the ground. I suddenly felt so much lighter thanks to the relief.

I was glad that I could eventually avoid my punishment. Too bad the escape did not work. It might have occurred to me that they would have some traps installed along the way in His lair. I also looked for the cameras to find out were they exactly are in the room. I noticed that each of the corners on the ceiling probably had false wall. It had to be in there. It would correspond to the angle I saw on the monitors.

That evening he also gave me more food. Before I fell asleep, I had fun watching the cameras to make every viewer feel bad.