IT oneshots

Birds pt. 2

Ok second part here we come! Sorry I haven't uploaded in like, forever. We recently hit 200 views so I just wanted to thank you guys! Also, how feeling? IT chapter 2 just came out on digital! I watched it so many times I can't tell you. Also the supercut made me want to cry. Anyway enjoy! 

I couldn't comprehend what was going on at this point. He leaned in and kissed me. His lips were soft and chapped, but sweet all at the same time, he smelled so nice I wish I could just be wrapped around him at all times, and his hair was soft too, like how I always imagined it to be.
My brain was being overloaded with too many feelings for me to comprehend, it was like I was braindead.
Bill was kissing me, and I wasn't even kissing back. Didn't I want this? I thought i wanted this? I don't want this, I shouldn't.
Bill ended the kiss, he moved back and he looked scared. As if i might hate him forever. Like I might treat him like how everyone else in this town treats gays.
"Bill," I said, touching my lips, remembering how his felt against mine, suddenly wanting more.
I leaning forward, connecting our lips once again. This time only, I kissed back.
This kiss wasn't a sweet and soft as the other one, it was more passionate and needy. Our lips connected and moved together in sinc, like they were made for each other.
We broke apart after a while, only needing to catch our breath and then returning back to the kiss. This was my first kiss with anyone and it was amazing. Never would I imagine that my best friend would be kissing me, a Jew boy who always got bullied for it. A boy who thought he would always be alone no matter how many people were around him.
Bill got on top of me, so i was laying on the grass. He was taking charge in the kiss, and I loved it.
Our make out session was cut short when bill pulled away and got off me.
"I...I ...I...I'm s..sorry" bill said.
Bill got up and started to pack up our things. I didn't move. I was too shocked to move. We kissed. And bill is acting like we never did. Why does this hurt so much?
I got up too, and helped him pack up our stuff. We walked back in the trail that we took before. It was silent, no one saying a thing. This time, the silence was horrible. The tension in the air was awkward and unwanted.
"I..I had fun bill." I said, not daring to look at him.
"Usually I always go with Richie, but this was a nice change."
Bill looked over at me, his face blank, and I couldn't read any emotion in his eyes.
"So do you make out with Richie too? Or what about mike? I heard him talking about how he loved his time with you. And don't play stupid because I see the way you look at Richie and mike and all the other losers."
I stopped walking. I stood there just staring at bill.
THIS IDIOT. I wanted to screen at someone, anyone, about how stupid bill is. For our leader of the losers bill sure is an idiot.
Instead of rage, instead of me screaming my head off, I just laughed at him. I laughed right in his face.
"You idiot." I said while laughing.
I intertwined our fingers and began to walk along the path again.
"Let's go home."