Against my better judgement,
I've opened my heart again.
I still don't know why
Or what you did exactly
To chip the icy glacier
Of my heart.
But you did it.
They always do,
Always against my better judgement,
And I let them.
I let them bash me in
And take what they want
Until they have their fill,
And just like that they're gone.
And as much as I want to fight back,
I can't.
I let myself believe that
This time
They'll stay.
This time
I'll get something back.
This time
I won't be left empty and broken.
This time
They'll love me back.
Again and again,
I fool myself into believing
I'm loved
And wanted
And it's good.
I want to believe it this time.
But am I just fooling myself again?
Am I imagining that I am
One of the stars shining in your eyes?
Am I imagining that your gaze
Strays to me as much as mine does
To you?
Am I imagining that your words
Are more than mere conversations?
Am I convincing myself that
This time
That you
Will be different,
Just to be knocked down again?
YOU ARE READING
Him
Thơ caLove is a hard thing. Getting over the love you lost Is even harder. It was torture; But when I look back Years from now, I will smile because Although I thought I would never be okay, I will be.
