Today was hard
Everyone keeps saying
It will get better
You will be fine
It's going to be okay
And I know that it will
But I'm not gonna lie
Today sucked
Everywhere I looked was you
Everything I touched was you
Every word I spoke was you
Every thought I thought was you
I'm not gonna lie
I'm pissed
I miss you more than life itself
And you're just fine
Off on your own
With your freedom
At least that's how I feel
That's what I've been telling myself
That's how it seemed the night
You gave up
Because I had already given up
I had already said it was over
And that was wrong
I fucked up and
I know it
But you did too
When I apologized for
Shutting you out
When I begged for you back
When I pleaded with you to
Just talk to me
You shut me out
You left me
Your face a blank wall as you
Slammed the door on my heart
I'm not gonna lie
That hurt more than anything
The indifference
The blankness
The derision
If it was a tactic to make me feel better
By showing you would be okay
After I destroyed your heart
It failed
Miserably
It made me feel worse than you
Can possibly imagine
I'm not gonna lie
I still hold my breath when my phone lights up
I still tense at every knock at my door
I still crane my head to see if that car was yours
I still cry at night
I still shake with sobs in my car
I still scream at the heavens, asking why
Why you did it
Why you left me so easily
Why you gave me up so effortlessly
How did you give me up?
Without a second glance?
Without a thought to talk to me?
To make it right?
To fight for me?
I'm not gonna lie.
I thought you cared more than that.
I know you care more than that.
And I wish I understood.
YOU ARE READING
Him
شِعرLove is a hard thing. Getting over the love you lost Is even harder. It was torture; But when I look back Years from now, I will smile because Although I thought I would never be okay, I will be.
