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Remember When

Remember when
You wanted me to come over
But I was sick and couldn't drive.
Your brother had your car,
And by the time you got it back
You had work.
You had a half hour break for lunch,
And you took that half hour
Driving ten minutes both ways
Just to see me for five minutes.
I was a mess,
I hadn't showered,
My hair was a nest,
And I definitely did not look sexy.
But you hugged me when you left,
Kissed my forehad
And said "I love you".
And I knew you loved me.

Remember when
I had to get out of the house
Clear my mind
And be with myself.
I called you, because
You were the only one I could call.
You weren't in town,
But you talked to me
And let me rant about everything
And nothing.
You listened,
You encouraged,
You sympathized.
And I knew you loved me.

Remember when
I was worried sick,
Literally sick,
Because my mom was not doing well.
I had lost my voice from stress
But still came to Caesar rehearsal.
I curled up under a blanket
On the couch backstage,
And after your scene
You came back,
Sat under the blanket
And lifted my legs into your lap;
Put you arms around my waist,
And pulled me to your chest.
There was sat for the rest of rehearsal,
Your hand smoothing my hair.
And I knew you loved me.

Remember when
We went hiking in the night.
I tried to cross the river
But ended up in it.
You helped out of the river
And gave me your sweatshirt.
Then we hiked and talked
And laughed,
And when you stopped to point out the moon,
I leaned back against a tree and
Smiled at your shining eyes.
You turned and smiled back,
Pushed me back against the tree
And kissed me hard.
We walked back to the car,
Your hand in mine,
And before I could open my door
You twirled me around,
Swung me into your arms
And surprised me with a soft kiss.
And I knew you loved me.

Remember when
I came over
And we swam in your pool.
We threw a basketball around
And tried to play volleyball,
And every time one of the balls
Went over the edge,
You ran to get it for me
(Since I was most likely the one
Who knocked it out).
We settled on two floats
And you pulled me over your legs
So we floated together.
You grabbed my hand and
Pressed it against your chest.
I felt your heart beating fast.
And then you flipped us over,
You punk.
I splashed you,
And in retaliation
You grabbed me 'round the waist,
Lifted me to you
And kissed me.
And I knew you loved me.

Remember when
I was sleep deprived,
Worried,
Anxious because of a friend
And not able to sleep.
You came over to hang out
And knew right away something was wrong.
You held me in your arms
And I fell asleep.
You stayed with me all night,
Just holding me
And when I woke up with your arms around me
And your quiet breath on my neck
I smiled for the first time in a while.
I tried not to wake you
So I could keep that moment
In my mind forever.
And I knew you loved me.

Remember when
I came over the night after you said no.
It was midnight,
And I had just gotten off work.
When I knocked,
You answered,
Opened the door,
Stepped back,
And I walked in.
You didn't touch me.
I sat on the couch
Next to the cat,
And you sat on the other side.
You didn't touch me.
I told you how unfair you had been to me,
How you had hurt me,
Used me,
Played me.
And you looked sorry;
You looked regretful.
You said some nonsense or other,
And although I felt no better,
I let you go.
You asked if you could hug me,
And as I clung to you,
My arms tight around your neck,
I knew you loved me.

So why didn't you stay?