Hold On To Me

Eagerly Waiting

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where
I love you simply, without problems or pride
I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you...

-Pablo Neruda

Mo Yuan was overwhelm with emotion when he looks at Bai Qian's face scrunch up with pain. Beads of sweat on her forehead trickling slowly down the creases of her frown.
A mixture of fear, uselessness, joy, protectiveness, love and tenderness could be seen from his face.
He pushes the wet strands of hair away from her face and leans down to whisper words of love into her ear.

He was a bit arrogant to imagined that everything will be uncomplicated. Who would have thought that Bai Qian has been having contractions for more than five hours.

Her face and lips has becomes colorless due to the pain.

He looks anxiously at the attending nurse...full of questions and nervousness shows from his eyes.

She's currently looking at the monitor and recording the time of contractions.

Suddenly she rushes out of the room. A spasm of pain contorted Bai Qian's face. She grips his hand tighter while taking deep breaths through her mouth. Then she bite down on her bottom lip making the pinkness of her lip turns white.

Mo Yuan pushes his forearm in front of her.

"Qian Qian you can bite my arm if it's painful. Don't bite your lip and hurt yourself."

He has never felt so helpless in his life until this moment. Fear and apprehension swirl within him.

The moisture on Bai Qian's face started to blur her vision as she clutches his hand tightly.
She raises his hand closer to her mouth and bite down on his forearm as another wave of contraction hits her.

Mo Yuan's jaws tighten as her teeth sinks into his flesh.

The door to the delivery room opens and a man in his early fifties walk in. Behind him was the nurse that had walked out earlier.

He lifts up the blanket that covers the bottom half of her body and helps Bai Qian place her legs on the stirrups. After a few seconds he nods his head and the nurse handed him a metal piece.

"Hello, I'm doctor Lu. You are fully dilated and ready to have this baby. Just to give you an idea of what's going to happen in the next few minutes...
Although you are ready to have this baby but the amniotic sac is still intact. Therefore, I'm going to break the amniotic sac. Once the amniotic sac is broken the contractions will intensify and will be more frequent. With every contractions I want you to push as hard as you can."

Once the doctor punctured the amniotic sac the  odorless and colorless liquids slowly trickles out...

"Daddy when the next contraction hits I want you to help your wife sits up a bit. This helps to push the baby down. Bai Qian on my count push as hard as you can."

The nurse looks at the monitor...

"Okay it's coming..."

"One...two...three...push..."

Bai Qian pushes with all her might until she's out of breath.

The doctor signal for Mo Yuan to help Bai Qian lays back down...

After a few pushes...

"I see the baby's head. One more push and the baby should be out...ready?"

Mo Yuan nervously nods his head. He looks down at his lifeless wife with tears streaks on her cheeks.

"Qian Qian, our baby will be out soon. Just one more push. I will discipline him/her once it's out for causing you so much pain. Thank you for baring the pain of giving birth to my child."