The Love She Always Wanted

Chapter 13

Marianna POV

Two weeks later

Jordan insisted that we drive to Charlotte for the weekend. There are a few open houses that we're gonna see while we're down here. It took us four hours to get here so we got a hotel so Jordan and Armani could sleep.

I grabbed my purse and walked into the bathroom. I sighed as I pulled the pregnancy test out. I brought it while Jordan wasn't looking when we made a stop. I quickly opened it and took the test, hoping that Jordan wouldn't wake up.

I sighed after reading the results. I threw everything away before exiting the bathroom.

"Mari." Jordan called out for me. I walked closer and sat down on the bed.

"Hmm?"

"Lay down with us." He mumbled as he pulled me closer to him and Armani. I smiled as I kissed the top of her head then laid mine on Jordan's chest.

I have to keep us together, even if it means moving to Charlotte. Maybe I'll find something good for me here, other than just being a stay-at-home mom. I don't know, but I just can't mess this up. Jordan has changed so much and we have Armani now. I can't just give everything up because I'm not happy.

Jordan POV

I grabbed Mari's hand and kissed it, making her smile before I continued to feed Armani. We went to see two houses then we got hungry so we stopped at this restaurant.

"What's wrong? You been quiet since we left the hotel." I asked her before I started eating my food. She shifted her position in the chair.

"Nothing." She lied to me as she looked down at her food. "I'm just a little tired. I should've taken a nap with you and Armani." She smiled as she looked up at me.

"Baby, if you're not happy with moving down here, we don't have to. I don't want you to be uncomfortable. I-"

"Jordan, this is a great opportunity! I think I'll actually love it here more than you." She said as she placed her hand on mine. "I really liked the second house. It has enough space for us to expand our family and a big yard for our dog and the kids to run around."

"Okay." I said as I continued feeding Armani and myself. I know that I'm far from perfect, but I feel like I'm trying to make shit better and make shit work. I can feel her withdrawing herself from me.

I forgave her for cheating on me in my house with Smoke while I was locked up because I've done some horrible shit to her that I'll never forgive myself for. I want us to be able to move on and work things out, but it don't seem like we on the same page at the same time. My godmother told me that me and Marianna should go to counseling, but I don't even know how to bring that up.

I paid and tipped the waiter before we left. Mari tried to make small talk with me but I wasn't really in the mood. I gave her one worded answers and just told her that I was tired since she wanted to pull that tired shit on me.

Me and Armani played with her dolls and watched a movie before she fell asleep. I kissed her cheek before laying her down in her little co-sleeper bed that Marianna insisted we get before going to the bathroom.

Once I was finished, I washed my hands. I noticed a pregnancy test in the trashcan. I grabbed some toilet paper and pulled it out to read the results.

I sighed as I threw it back in the trashcan. I washed my hands again before leaving the bathroom to go talk to Marianna. She was out on the balcony.

I stood next to her. She looked over at me and weakly smiled. I stared down at her before caressing her cheek. She's so beautiful man.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked her as I looked directly into her eyes. Her smile faded as she placed her hand on my arm.

"What are you talking-"

"The test." I interrupted her. She looked down at her feet. "I saw it in the bathroom. Why you ain't tell me, man?"

"I just...I...I don't know, okay?" She said as she looked around, avoiding eye contact with me. I could still see that her eyes were tearing up.

"Mari, I didn't say it to make you cry." I said as she stepped away from me.

"Yeah, well, mission accomplished." She sarcastically said while facing away from me.

I turned her around and pulled her into my arms. "I want to be here for everything since I wasn't there for Armani." I lifted her chin up. "And just because the test was negative, it doesn't mean that you disappointed me. We can always try again."

She was quiet for a few seconds. She looked up at me before placing her hands on my face. I leaned down and kiss her. She smiled as we pulled away.

"December 7th." She said, confusing me. "You asked me about our wedding date and I never gave you an answer."

I smiled before kissing her again. "As you wish."

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