Calm and Chaos

1. Patch & Catherina | I

Title: Wolves of Never
Genre: Werewolf | Short Story
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[Catherina Nixon]

Three years later

The cold breeze of the night didn't stop me from coming here. I want to see him so bad. Mabilis akong umakyat sa malaking puno at pumuwesto sa malaking sanga kung saan makikita ko nang maayos ang kwarto niya.

He live alone in this two storey-house just outside the Freewoods City. The house was painted matte black from the gate up to the roof. Sometimes people will spread rumors that this house is haunted for it was painted with black and most of them believed that.

Even though the house was gloomy and had an eerie vibe the exterior and its interior is modern.

I sighed as I heard footsteps inside. Nagsumiksik ako sa puno para hindi ako mahalata. I caught my breath and my heart started to pound hard as his bedroom door opened. I was lucky that there is a huge tree near his room so I could check him up from here before I go to sleep.

He opened the lights in his room and I can finally smile after a long day by just seeing his face.

"Mate looks tired, we need to take care of him," my wolf said while pacing back and forth inside my head.

I want to go there to hug him and to take care of him but I know that he will just push me away like he always did. I just can't go near him because he is in spite of me.

After all, I am the one he blamed for his family's death but maybe, he was right. Kung hindi siya nagtagal noon sa lugar kung nasaan ako ay naagapan niya sana ang sakuna sa kanilang pack, nailikas niya sana ang pamilya niya.

Ngunit may isang bahagi sa isip ko na kung hindi ba siya nagtagal noon kasama ko ay makikilala ko pa siya? Mabubuhay kaya siya kung nandoon siya sa kanilang pack nang sugurin ito ng mga rouges? 

I shook my head. It's my fault and I will never have his forgiveness because he already said that he will hate me for the rest of his life even if I'm his mate, the one who is destined to be with him.

"But you don't deserve him, you didn't listen to me before that is why you're—we are facing the consequences of your wh*renss," I gritted my teeth on what my wolf said about me. 

She's right. Wala akong karapatang sumagot sa kanya dahil tama siya. Lumandi ako noon kahit na alam kong may itinadhana para sa akin at huli na para bawiin ko ang mga ginawa ko noon. It has been a decade now but I'm still here, couldn't own him, couldn't hold him. I just couldn't have him. I was tired and tormented.

Maybe, I will never find my happy ending because I will forever chase him. 

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Another day came and I woke up in my bed alone. My bedsheets didn't warm me enough. I can still feel the coldness of being alone. There's no fan or aircon in my room because I couldn't afford to buy those things. If I'm with my mate, I'm sure that I will not have this cold morning.

I'm sure I will wake up in his arms, his breath will touch my skin, his legs will tangle up with mine. And of course, his lips. . . I will kiss his lips until he wakes up. And sure, I will also take care of his morning wood too.

I always imagine those things but I guess it will always stay in my imaginations because my mate loathed me. If I have the chance, I will tell him my dark past and hopefully he'll understand and accept me. But who am I kidding? No one will accept a woman who is touched and used by different men.