Calm and Chaos

5. Cassie & Harry | I

Title: Broken Trust
Genre: General Fiction | Short Story
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[Cassandra Lim]

"So, I've been thinking
Wondering if you've been thinking
About me, about us.
About lies, about trust.

No, let's not go there.
Don't wanna fight, I know it's unfair.
I just want some closure.
Now that we're over.

You said you would be mine.
You swore that you would never lie.
So, I let you walk inside.
Soldier, start a fire.

But you wanted to be free.
'Cause I guess it's what you need.
Now I can barely breathe.
'Cause I think you've broken me.

Got a couple cigarettes in a dirty ashtray.
Overflowing with regrets and the things I didn't say.
What I've become when all's said and done.

Just a couple cigarettes in a dirty ashtray.
Got me feeling like a mess, wanna wash it all away.
Pick up the pieces, but I can't find the reasons today."

I breathed hard as I finished the song I came to love the moment I heard it on YouTube a week ago. I smiled shyly to the people who kept on clapping at me in the mini stage of my brother's bar.

I remembered saying 'no' to him a hundred times when he asked me to sing. But look where I am now, I laughed at myself for I couldn't just ignore his request. I shook my head when I caught him at his bar counter as he gave me a thumbs up and a big smile.

He owe me big time for this!

Sisiguraduhin kong malaking kapalit ang kukunin ko sa kanya dahil pinakanta niya ako rito! Ilang sandali pa ay bumaba na ako ng stage.

Napasalamat ako sa banda na tumugtog. Deserve nila na pasalamatan dahil magaling at maganda ang kanilang nalilikhang tugtog.

Hindi ko sila kilala dahil bihira lang akong magpunta rito pero siguro dala na rin ng kasiyahan kaya isa isa akong nakipagkamay sa kanilang anim.

Disente ang bar ni kuya, dim ang kulay asul na ilaw na hindi masakit sa mata. Hindi rin ganoon kalaswa ang mga tao dito, 'yung iba gusto lang talaga mag-chill.

"Ang galing mo talagang kumanta, Cassie!" nakangiting bungad sa akin ni kuya na kinurot ko sa kanyang tagiliran dahil naiinis pa rin ako sa kanya.

"This will be the last kuya! You know how I hate singing in front of people!" I hissed and walked towards the bar counter.

I ordered my favorite, margarita. Hindi ko na kailangan magbayad dahil kapatid ako ng may ari ng bar kaya sinulit ko na ang pag-order ko. Nakalimang margarita na ako ng maramdaman kong may umupo sa tabi ko.

"Broken hearted?"

I rolled my eyes. "Hindi pwedeng na-miss ko lang ang lasa nito?"

Dalawang buwan na pala ang huli kong inom ng alak kaya sinusulit ko na ngayon dahil baka matagalan ulit dahil busy ako sa work.