All I wanted was to talk to you. All I wanted was to tell you how I felt. I just wanted you to listen. Did any of that happen? Did I get what I wanted or would have hoped for? No. I did not. Instead, I got something way worse. I got the ugly truth. I got everything I never wanted or thought could happen to me, but it did. I got to see your true colors. You say it's my fault and I am a bad influence and that I will never make it on my own. And in some sense, you're right. But in other sense, you're wrong. I may be weak and vulnerable now, but once I stop hurting. Once I realize this was not my fault and I am not a bad influence, I will be strong. Until that day, I will continue to cry and be hurt. Hurt because of you. Not once did I think you would do the thing I feared most. I honestly did not think you would and I guess that is my fault. Thinking you wouldn't do what you did. Well now you did and I will forever have that scar of you in my mind. It will forever be in my heart and that is the worst thing to happen to a child. Not once did I think. I feel. I feel everything. And I felt what you said and what you did. I felt it all. But not once did I think it would go as far as it did. So congratulations. I am hurt. I am weak. I am vulnerable. I am hopeless. Not forever though. No. There will be a day where I will rise and not be hopeless. I will not be vulnerable. I will not be weak. I will not be hurt. I will have peace. And then? You WILL listen, but it will be too late.
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PoesiaThese are words put together by me. Enjoy! (: *I would like to address that these poems were how I felt at the time I wrote/published them. So when reading them, you may feel a certain way. I'm hoping you will feel something when reading this becaus...
