Life of Mine

CHAPTER 14: Accept and Forgive

Via's POV

I can't sleep... I keep moving and moving and moving at my bed trying to find my comfort zone and fell into a deep sleep but until now, there's still no progress. While moving, I freeze as I heard someone knocked in my window.

Oh God! Was that a kidnapper? Or a serial killer? Or a--- stop stop stop. Think positive Via. I stand up from my bed, getting all the courage to face the wrath from who will be this person behind my window. I grab my pillow and walk towards the door slowly.

Once I was near the window, I took a deep breath. Okay Via, in the third count you open the window and slam the pillow to that person, okay?

Yeah! I know I was weird. Whatever if I'm talking to myself.

1...2...3... Open! *boom!*

"Ow!" A familiar voice shout as I slam the pillow towards him. Him?! Wait?

"Alex? What are you doing here in the middle of the night?! You scared the shit out of me!" I whisper scream at him while making him sit in my bed and I locked back the window.

"First of all, why are you calling me Alex, because you're supposed to be calling me Grey? Secondly, I did came here to apologize, and thirdly you're too dumb in choosing your weapon." He hissed at me while rubbing his head that slams from my window after I slam him my pillow. The art of domino effect.

"Well there's no big deal in calling you Alex okay. It was still your name. And a guy like you learn how to apologize? Whoa what pill have you taken? And lastly fudge you! Whatever if I used pillow?!" I shouts at him in just one breath.

"The second sentence hurts" he said dramatically.

"I thought we are out in each others life right now. You don't like me, right? And I'm not your type. Why then in a sudden you're here in front of me asking to forgive you." I said, letting a huff and sit beside him.

"Was the point in your sentence is to not accept my apology?", he asked me showing a weak reaction to his eyes.

"No. Not that, what I mean is... I thought you really dislike me and that you don't have a care right now after you had said those words. It hurts you know..." He stared at me too long with a looks of regret from his eyes... whooo boy! Was he digging a hole?

"I'm really really sorry Via... I didn't mean what I said. I already lost many people in my life and now I don't want you to be one of them." He said lowering his head and rub his temples. What does he mean? Was i important to him? I can't believe what I feel, its like giving warmth to my heart just like I fulfill the one I needed to.

"But, did you know that you are the reason why they're leaving you? Only you who give them motives to leave you all alone..." I explained to him even if I don't want to, but I have to.

"Cause I thought that showing my true self will let them stay...but not."

"Do you think saying mean words was showing the real you?" i asked him. A silence interrupted between us, Ugh! Via! I should've not said that!

"I said that to you even if I don't want to, but I have to." I kind of confused about what he said. What does he mean about speaking 'want to' and 'have to' ?

"I can't understand you. Was that indeed necessary to hurt my feelings because of sole purposes that I didn't even know?" I asked him annoyingly, all I want is an explanation.

"Someone's gonna do something bad to you if they'll know that you are close to me... It was my father." My eyes widened as what he had just said.

"What's your father gonna do with me? I didn't even know neither met him."

"Well, it was not really him that'll make you suffer, cause he is at the hospital. It was his goons, I don't know why you... He kept talking over that Martin guy and I don't even know why you'd came in the story? Do you know him?" I fell in silent. I can't believe about this! It was a year ago and it wasn't me who killed that Martin!

"I do know him..." I trails off from my sentence cause now, I'm having an argumentation between my inner self. Should I tell him? Maybe no... Not now.

"Really? Who is he in your life?"

"He was nothing Alex, I don't even know what guy he is, I just kind of heard his name from somewhere." I explain while keeping my best disguise just to avoid that he might suspect me of something.

"Oh. So? Would you forgive me?" He asked me while I stand up from my bed and opens the window to breathe fresh air.

I still didn't answer and seconds pass by, two hands was wrapped around my waist and rest his head at the crook of my neck. I rested at his touch and it send sparks to my body. If I was made of fireworks powder I would be exploding by now. He indeed smells good... A scent that I can't explain but my mind say it all.

"If I forgive you, would you promise me to not say that words again? Its okay if were not hanging out in school or whatsoever. Just don't throw mean words at me." I tell him while playing my fingers.

Don't ask how to play fingers!

"Okay, I promise... That's kind of difficult but I'll accept it, if that is the only way you'll forgive me." His minty breath is fanning through my neck as shivers went down through my spine.

"Then I'll forgive you..." I said, tilting my head towards him and smile.

We stared with each other deeply and Grey's head is coming near close to me. Was he planning to kiss me? Should I kiss him back? One wrong move Via and your lips will be connected.

I stared at his lips and back to his eyes. In sudden but in a gentle way he closed the gap between us and he connected his lips to mine. I tilt my body and I was facing to him right now. I wrapped my arms around his neck and his hands travel to my body and rested to my waist.

We both let go to one another and catch up with our breathes.

"I've never kissed someone so passionately" he mumbles to himself that makes me chuckle.

"And I've never kissed someone before and now its you..." His eyes widened.

"I am your first kiss?" He said with a hint of amazement.

"What if I said yes...happy now?" I get away from his hold and lay down at my bed, staring at the ceiling. Grey also followed me and lay down to my bed, beside me.

"I'm really sorry Via..." How many times he should say his sorry. One word is enough for me handsome.

"Can you please stop saying your sorry Alex... I already forgive you and I also accept the fact that all of those happened for a matter of reasons. So don't bother yourself right now." I said slapping him in the chest that makes him flinch.

I was kind of sleepy this time. I let out a yawn and my eyes feels heavier than before, maybe this was the sleep I am finding last time. I let the darkness cover me and closed my eyes.

"I'll promise to protect you Via."

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So that's it... I kind of sucks in writing a kissing scene.

I don't really know how will it goes but I kind of make it...

Honestly I slightly gagged as I read it. Really eewwww😂