Life of Mine

CHAPTER 25: Why does it have to be like this?

Grey's POV

Via and her friends, I mean also my friends already went out from the cafeteria. They haven't notice me at a distant so I decided to stay at my sit and watch them happy together. Wish I could turn back the time...

I get up from my sit and decided to ditch school but while I'm on my way a chick block me.

"What now Caryl?" I asked her, well I'm not sure if that's her name.

She smiles at me sweetly that makes me disgusted by her act but i didn't show it to her.

"It's Claire... And I was asking if you are going to join the camp?" She said flirtatiously.

"You don't care if I am going or not... So could you please move along and mind your own business." I said sweetly just to not offend her too much.

For now, I was really out of my mind and just be in peace. I can't understand myself, I wish Via would be the one to accompany me but for her safety I'd rather be spending time by my own and comfort myself I guess.

I really miss her smile, her soft skin, her beautiful voice, her silky hair, all her.

Why does it have to be like this?

I went home totally devastated because of what are happening in my life. While entering the house, I saw mom baking...

"Hey son...looks like you're carrying the world huh?" She said that makes me smile. I went inside the kitchen and sit on the chair.

"Where's Courtney?" I asked her as I noticed that there is no little princess running around.

"She's at our neighbor playing with the little boy just like her age and his twin... Courtney really enjoys seeing the twins since she considered them as her two little Prince." Mom said while getting the pan from the oven.

"Courtney is fond of boys right now..." I mumble to myself tiredly.

"I know you're not feeling well Greyiee... Now as your mother would you please tell me what has gotten in your life? I really missed the times that I'm still beside you and give the love that you needed since your mom already vanished..." She said that makes my heart leaps a bit in satisfaction.

"No it's nothing...its just that I missed the girl that I love" I said while standing up.

"I know it was difficult from your part on staying away from someone you really love the most... But you'll surpass all of it, just keep on fighting okay. She's something and she's worth it..." My mom said giving me a sympathetic smile. I hugged her tight and went outside the house again.

Although she wasn't my real mom, she's still trying her best to be my mom. And that's why I'd never hate her. Whilst now I'm going to visit my real mom's grave. I went to a flower shop first and bought her the flowers she love, my mom loves sunflower with a mixture of violet tulips. Even if its expensive, still I decided to buy it just for her. After paying at the counter I drive towards the cemetery where my mom was buried.

A few moments passed by, i arrived at the cemetery well its a surprise since there are many people here. I walked towards my moms grave and sat there giving her the flowers.

"Hey mom... I missed you a lot, I know its too foreign for you seeing your handsome son crying like a baby in front of you. But crying doesn't make me a baby right? I'm still a big guy... Nothing change," I said not minding the tears flowing out from my eyes.

"Mom...could you please help me from all of this. It's not that I'm surrendering, it's just that I become tired. Mom if I ask you such things like if I love a person with my whole heart, should I fight for her even if she doesn't know what I'm a undergoing cause I don't want her to feel the sufferings I've gone through? Was that even considerable mom?" I sob bitterly.